school is really your second home because when shit happens at home or anywhere else, the school is the best santuary. for now i'm thankful for tml's 5-6.30 extra gp lecture and i'm thankful for council meeting and gp tuition on wed until 9 and i'm thankful for thursday when i go for math and take that 30min walk home alone. it may sound angsty but when all you receive is a cold glare and all the piled up tension between them is vented on you at home, you just want to have every excuse to stay far far away. it really sucks being the youngest. no doubt you get doted on superficially by most of the family but whatever the parents failed to educate or instill in the other siblings, you are automatically made the dumping ground. i do agree that sometimes these values are indeed good and for the best of my interest for my character building process but sometimes being used and having others living vicariously through you makes you feel empty.
decided to watch the honey mtv of "i believe" in my bid to be hopeful and not think of all the unintentional unhappiness i caused everyone. since i screw up my life so much(and others, come to think of it) i see why now you guys try your utmost to control it.
