hello! juz came back from TPSH.... WE WON!!!! yeah! haha chung cheng c boys bBall won the championship! haha was so crazy and happy! haha then like almost the whole sports hall was full of CCHM students. then like only a minority were unity sec.

very sad hc didn't get to xia chang but still at least he ran through it. heehee i hugged him man! haha seemed very wierd cos like the last time i hugged a guy was like since that relationship but i mean hc is my brother-brother-fren kindda fren... haha *crappin* donnnoe what i'm saying.

went to the sports hall with joyce, yi ling and alicia.... stupid bus not enough.... hai wo men walk all the way out to the main road to take cab. then all the cabs on the way didnt stop to take us and like almost all were heading to cchm then to the sports hall! haha felt like the amzing race like that.... haha then on the road, we were lookin at all the cabs which passed by and like most of them were full of chung chengers.. *diaoz* so screamed until hoarse but luckily neva loose my vioce haha. not like ivie like that. scream a bit then all the vocal cords all give way haha maybe becos i yell instead of scream..... my vioce is very low for a gal..... anyway the match was very exciting.... half time it was like 11-11 then there was last 10 min play and the score was 44-43..... both cchm was leading! haaha yeah. then in the end we won!!! haha can't rmb the score la. but zong zi, i was very happy for hc and the rest la... well, i won't give a detailed commentary of the game.... too tired haha.

i would like to take this opportunity to thank shi ning, viona and jin tian for showing me the bus stop.....haha anyway i was headin to macs there then i saw sum1 look up and gave me a very sinister look. donnoe what i did i mean i haven't even enter yet and that sum1 gave me such a look..... i was so pissed off that i juz lost my appittite there and then... ARG! irritatin. so i headed down to delifrance, bought a bun and an ice tea then took the MRT to city hall, cross over to the other line and went home. then risked the fact that i might have lost my way but i took the no 42 bus home. ACTUALLY FOUND THAT IT WORKED! haha so here i am at home, tired out but preparing to go for jap tuition... sianx one thing sad was that i went home alone.... unlike many others who had a fren to go home with......i sound so friendless.... sigh.....

welll to add on to me saddness, i didn't get into TAIP. life is full of shite. well.... shit happens

. : LONELINESS :.

there has always been groups of ppl in a class like who you feel most comfortable with or who you can trust. but since i came to secondary school, my perception of things have altered alot. i have learnt to be guarded with what i say and to watch out for my actions. a classmate of mine gave me a very good example which i totally agreed on. If one knows that she is not "accepted" into a certain group and does not feel comfortable in that specific group, anyone in their right mind would know to stay away and to try to have the least strand of contact with them. they would also find an alternative way to find other friends either in class or outside of class. if lets say me, i don feel like i fit in with the girls in my class, i try to fit in with the guys in my class cos prbably i might have some common interest and if i do then i'll have a group to hang with. but this will cause the other girls to speculate and say that either i am being flirty or slutty which is a very cynical and shallow-minded way of thinking. anyway that's how i feel now, lonely imean. all that i've said above is and example. but i find that i don really have a close"girl-fren" at all.

GROUPS IN CLASS(GIRL SIDE)
-stella and cheryl
-shavonne and stephanie
-shemaine and pei ting
-alicia, carmen, ji soo and geok joo
-ai lin
-me

most of you might now think that it is only right for me to be close buddies with ai lin but the fact is that i don really think we click 'cept for some issues but the truth is that both of us can't really be close- buddies cos i juz have a feeling like it won't work out or something. that's why i feel so lonely in my class that most of the time, i'm spendin my recess at another class. 2LY is my haven. first, it' s so sad that i find that my school is full of hyprocrites, second, not matter what i do i still can't get away from this. try fighting it and ppl will think badly of you, try accepting it, ppl also will think badly of you. it's such a simple matter that can be solved but the ppl makes it so difficult.! i also juz realised that a sec1 i know who i thought i was on good terms with suddenly does not like me very much and i'm hearing stories that ppl write in science labs that they don like me too. i mean think of it, ppl who you don knoe say they don like you. i mean where's the humanity in that and like it would be so freaky! i mean i could be talkin to a person who hates me to the coer but i don even knoe it. maybe the person who i pass everyday in school also hates but i don evern know who it is. that is the utmost thing i'm afraid off. to be hated and not know for what reason and esp by whom.

i juz smsed my tuition fren and i was juz jokin with her that she and another guy was together and she lashed out at me poisonously! she was like" whatever i say and talk to him about is between us and is like none of your business" and i was not even provokin her! she didn't evern like tell me that she didn't like what i said about them. moreover it was only 7 words and she has to sms me all that. well anyway , i've juz gotta accept that she does not really take to me and all i should do is to stay far, far away from her. that way i can ease myself from more pain that i am receiving from school. lets juz hope that my anel would find me soon or i find my angel soon before i crack up and explode in this shit hole! ARG! i really feeling angry and depressed noe. *sigh* i really need to try to find MORE alternatives of releasing bad "chi" haha perhaps i'll join yoga! haha

NEW CRAZE FOR PETER PAN(03 version)
hello! juz watched peter pan 03 version and yeah yeah i kno you might be thinkin' like

: "huh?! peter pan? so old still watch peter pan? that flying boy who wears mostly leaves and never grows up? you mean wyntrice actually watched it???"

well yeah! i watched it.... so what? and more over it's not any OTHER peter pan show, it is a ROMANTIC, LOVE movie! Wendy and Peter falls head over heels for each other and they even kiss! mouth-to-mouth! and it is SO nice! i LOVE IT! it is goin to be one of my favourite movies! haha . I'm this kinnda person la. sucker at all these romantic stuff and will do anything to get it... hee hee anyway the lead actor, jeremy sumpter, who acts as peter pan is SOOO ccute! i love him!!!!( not quite but somewhere near there la) haha but quite a lot of ppl agree with me that he is good-lookin and the lead actress, Rachel Hurd-Wood who plays Wendy has a certain charm and looks quite cute. but thaht's all i can say bout her la haha! i'm so bias and I LOVE IT!!! haha she is so lucky to have her first movie to be such a block-buster! and like he first movie to have an on-screen kiss! haha *wonder whether i'll ever have that experience* hmmmm.... haha well i'm keepin my fingers cross! haha

~lamez~
hello! comin here to crap again. anyway tml is national day celebration and it's a HALF-DAY! WHOO HOO! haha and only today did i realise that not only is monday a holiday but so is tueaday! aha! YEAH! but all the teachers all very sadistic. give us so MUCH homework!!! ARG!! donnnoe whether can finish. *SIgh*

yesterday i was havin' ELDDS rehearsal and it was quite fun movin' the furniture around haha then mei jie suddenly ask me to fill for felicia cos she got piano exam then she told me that it'll be serious! i was like huh?? haha but i'll still be doin back-stage! haha so fun! the props ppl are like one big family like that1 so nice and united but i tell you, what we do is NOT uited we only hav STRONG ties with each other but sumtimes we'll "qiang" other's props haha tghen the person cum out got nth to take in then look so diaoo lor! haha very farni when they have that sot look. the very "huh" look. haha then backstage cannot laugh AT ALL then if got joke then we cannot ta han then very de xin ku de haha. (okay very very very atrocious english) anyway i in the production "11 years" i very poor thing. get alot of or che! haha on my legs, hands and face! that time we play with the brooms and the "parang" then accidentally hit my face then very nan guo. almost got orche! haha hopefully next year national day miss cheong will let us camp for the night cos 4th floor of tech block got SUPER CLEAR view of the stadium then when see the fireworks then very de lang man! haha okay okay very romantic. so excruciating that one's heart will melt at first sight! haha

okay think will end here liao cos my bro very kan chong. wants to use the comp. haha anyway also gtg copy stella's maths wkbk. tml muz pass back to her for that k bird sadistic illusion of "very little homework" haha okie i REALLY got to go! bye bye!

that's me, wyntrice signing off for the night!