today is a C.R.A.P.P.Y. DAY...

apart from the regular fri eye candy *xin fu smile* and apart for my parents....today's been crap TOTAL UTTER CRAP

how would u feel if you were blown off by at least 3 ppl in the small span of half n hour??? and on that VERY hour, i realise that behind all those smiles lie a serious insecure problem n the actions that follow it will hurt n slice as sharp as a knife...

dont expect any happy things to be blogged today cos if there was any, i would be kiddin myself... and shooting myself not only in the foot but in the heart as well.

the only thing that i can say is that if your guys were set on emotional warfare... YOU'VE SUCCEEDED but you'll get back that same stabbing feeling next time... I'M SO SURE OF IT.... this will be my last post that i will blog bout this issues cos seriously your NOT WORTH IT..... disappear...

not been blogging.... I KNOW...

yday was wednesday right....hhmmm no EDS:) haaha yes so stayed back and had LOADS of time on my hands so swen n i went to WALK... haa yea so our WALK route was all the way from class-canteen-newblk3rdfloorlockers-class... haah we spent most of the time at the lockers.... THANK GOODNESS it was so windy. anyway had LOTS to talk about n not JUST biatching but grumbles n stuff...the norm la... so somehow the talk got directed to "the stupid things we used to do when we were young"....

just saw something and felt the sharp stab of jealousy, my dear green monster who has not been carefully locked up in the wardrobe...along with all the other skeletons...

been telling myself not to read too much into such stuff but like it's difficult okay.... but I'M TRYING!! haha *throws tantrum* (shudders... what have i become using all these *script talk* stuff) ewww....hhaa

it's been rather weird. AND confusing cos like when **'s hot, ***'s cold.... and when **'s cold, ***'shot.... -_-" right? i mean like URG!!!! what is HAPPENING??!!!! but wth la go with the flow... :)

pei pei... stop ji xiao-ing me la...haaha tml you ZHONG le!!! haha

these few days been getting home late... late as in 9 plus late..... but heck la...... PTA was today and it SUCKED BIG TIME. lleong was telling all these LIES bout how i was ALWAYS late for her classes!!!(hello! it was onli once and like today ONLY) then she was goin all "you cant do it, you sure cannot one la" i seriously wanted to throw up ON HER.... sorry that i'm not some weird-ass shit who likes to make ppl feel bad bout themselves and SUCKS UP TO YOU every lesson or lick the bottom of your heels... what-frickkin-ever..... i dispise your lessons cos of your biasness....

suwen was a life saver YET AGAIN.... haha thaNKS yea??? you loose some you gain some,....

somehow it was rather open today but like looks like u cant take a hint huh... oh well... to see you so close to her.... URG.... but i'll leave it to time. :)

school reopened, found out bout lots of unfinished homework, school giving motivational talks in the "vain"/or not hope that we ppl will buck up...well practically the norm.

had the dreaded chinese oral today and WONDERFUL gel n sam gave me last minute tips on how to score well, or just to pass for chinese oral... ^^ THANK YOU!!!! gel, i wont tell you to "go n die ANYMORE" will tell you to "go and LIVE!!" HAHA but somehow to a cynical person, it would seem like tryin to tell someone to go n get a life... but too bad, that's not what i mean. :)

Vegan, Virgin, Valentine is a COOL book.... the kind which is for-teenage-girls-yet-not-that-innocent-for-it-talks-bout-kissing-and-relationships. SUCH a diffrence from those who have grown-up with Sweet Valley High or BabySitterClub(however you spell it). *phew* yes...PHEW.... but i still personally think that books by ELIZABETH YOUNG ARE THE BEST!!!!! haha YES!!!

anyway the growing stack of unfinished holiday homework and the already-rather-faded-but-still-visible RED words on my thumb is winking at me...or rather WARNING me that if i dont start to do my work, i may just end up dying of excess penning, due to the vain hope that i'll follow everyday.... *shudders*

what the hell is happening now??? there's so much distraction....which one should i place my bet on?? ah well, i'll just live in the moment... cant wait till fri and both so ><>

i should seriously start to learn how to put nail polish on properly and not to end up painting my finger as well.... -_-" precisiely....

was just called up by my mum to help clear up the third floor *esp for you 3 okay...* so i was just lazying round til she gave me this SUPER FUN job.... lookin through this box of tapes which was titled under "wyntrice's tapes. DO NOT REMOVE" HAHA naturally i was curious. i checked most of them and i realised i even taped specific episodes of Fushigi Yuugi(aka curious play) and I FOUND THE MISSING SONG OF SAKURA WARS.... YES!!! finally i can record the song which was rather impossible 6 years ago....just imagine ppl of my age...when you were p5, there was no such thing as mp3s...no zen, no ipod.... whao...so much has happened...-0-... and i found all the tapes that contained the rest of the season of samurai x!!!! hhaa ....yes for ppl who doesnt believe that i would watch such things, i'm an ardent fan of japanese anime esp FUSHIGI YUUGI and SAMURAI X. HANAYORIDANGO(meteor garden the anime) TOO!! there are many many other animes to add to my list but the most memorable are those 2 above....^-^ yay!!!! haha i finally found you!

today went to town with the wanton-crazed suwen, the FJT "iqk"-crazed jasmine and foul mooded-jonathan..(but luckily like the horoscope in lime mag, his mood DID lighten up *phew*) so walked round paragon and realised that there was NO ripcurl, so we made our way to heeren, got to flash n splash and GUESS WHO I SAW AGAIN.... yes debbie!! haha second time now! anyway went up to 77th street and found my bling bling but it was 32 frickkin bucks la... T_T but there are seriously many NICE NICE types there.... hah jt was like "hey! D12!" -_-' yea. i know. the fan.... got an angry call from mum...yea i know .... nothing new huh! yea so tried eggin jt to pierce his ear but unfortunately due to family setbacks at home and the very obvious fear of pain, he decided not to. hmmm it was either the fact that i was ready to do something rebellious(due to THE phone call) or the fact i just wanted to get some kick out of today, i was ready to pierce MY EARS too!!! hmmm weird.. but i wouldnt mind....seriously.... what clouded vision can do to u :s

had fun at tuition also.... somehow crapping is always evident once cheryl is there.... btw, CONGRATS!! on gettin into tpjc!!! haaa yea and good luck on ave verum corpus (hail the true body) yea...some choir song....

geraldine!!!! she promised to "hong" me from now on...YAY!!! haah *victory sign*

to suwen n jasmine: dont let these small thing-ies get to your so easily.... it's not worth it, moreover you're got better things to do.... :) btw, swq is fricckkin huge...i mean even jt told u so....haha who ask you not to go home with me... *sticks out tongue*

wont say much here.... just a REALLY WIDE GRIN... ^0^

okay ppl summary of my day, diary of my life. was watching the ad on "if-your-life-was-a-movie-would-it-be-good?" one and well.... if i read my entries, their like almost always bout the same content n problems, so much grumbling.....yo....ANYWAY...

physicsremedial was a bore also cos i didnt bring my specs NOR my contacts so i was BLIND during the WHOLE thing... urg.... luckily jasmine was there... then i felt like a pri skol kid copying so openly frm jas...

met joey jie jie to SHOP!!! it was seriously like student-teacher, expert-apprentice kindda thing cos i kept learning new stuff from her...whao.... and she was like goddess la.... at least 3 diff ppl at 3 diff timings went up to her to ask if she was interested in joining the modeling thing.... the onli person who approached me was this old aunty who was giving out the breadtalk brochures....-_-" precisely. but the funniest one was when the guy at the food court choked when he saw her. then mummy was like "wah the geisha thing really do exist..." goin out with a supreme-lookin' hot mama aint fun... i felt so dowdy in what i thought was quite a good outfit... urg..... trust me fashion-wise.... on the whole she gave me lots of helpfu tips and i even got to buy a topshop top!! aha sounds so cute,.....I FINALLY CAN OFFICIALLY USE MY ZINCY!!! haha and it SO ROCKS!

my teeth are still hurting and i had to take panadol AGAIN today after lunch with the 2 love birds.... but scarily, gor lost so much weight round his face area..... FREAKY.... "jealousy is such an evil thing" "YA....it seriously is". now after ***** the "jealousy" or "enviousness" is catching up on me. i just somehow am spiritually barred from any such fun events.... i donnoe why but somehow it just is.... sadly for me... :'(

wanna start on my dentist story!!!! i need more conversations!!!!

saw you today. :)

teeth hurts like hell but with the wonder of modern tech n science, panadol has taken care of it... was reading some random blogs n realised that many had either '**' or 'you' or 'censored' or '**********' in their entries and somehow it makes me feel lonely. :(
i guess that it's just like what the character in "As told by ginger" said: "it's the feeling of having a new crush, the want to see them, the want to see them eat the marshmellow u passed them...." yea so it's the idea of falling in love that's been making me feel "jittery" n "restless". i think i'm DAMN hua xin but like if u know there's no hope btw a certain so-n-so and you then do you wait forever n test the power of time? or do u mope over it for a few days n get on with life and look for other more promising prospects? this doesn't only restrict to love but in any decision....like work.... what happens then?

analytical overload.

okay so today it might have been many factors such as the obvious clash of metal in my mouth, the fact that i couldn't understand math, the song and our past story .... but somehow it all came together and slapped me right in the face. i was feeling like crap when i had to put on a smiley face to greet my dad. well, he didn't buy it cos i'm not THAT good an actress...

ran upstairs and sat dispondently alone very "poetically romantic" n wasn't i a poignant sight. put "na nu hai dui wo shuo" on repeat and somehow, the past caught up with me and i started to pour. it's so wonderfully warped how life can treat you. one day you're having a time of your life at the beach with superb company and the next, you're up on the roof top alone cryin your heart out. how anyone will ever explain that to me i'll never know.

tml will be the 2 hour long special on "how electricity works" performed by gary chua and the cool pose of orgivers. mayb it'll be the usual.... "how does electricity work mr chua?" "well just repeat the things in the notes that i've AREADY covered in the past TWO lessons and voila"

crap. he was funny but not comforting. that's not what i'm looking for. sadly.

yups finally got to the beach....ahhh somehow spongebob is floating around in my head when i think of the beach....

the usual happened, got wet, got others wet, got other ppl's children wet(haa jk)(tryin pai-bi-ing) :) "lame aura still not got off me yet" haha

ppl who went today: qin, kel, gel, sam, lion, jas,wen,yang shen, lame aura, jt n ME. haha we had a super fun time. many many many nice nice memories. then we all wanted to dry ourselves cos the bike ppl said "must be dry" yea. so most of us found ourselves on the break water thing getting BBQ-ed. haha. seriously, it felt wonderful... just lying there, soakin up the sun and all.....

went to cycle n all then reached the bedok jetty and we were a cute site, riding diff bikes up n down....haha the double bikes were cute. there was once when i had to pillion hey gnoy cos he cant cycle... haha "noob" haha then we ran over a fish and it went "splat" hah

my "trusty" slippers died on me today..... both top part came off n i had to do with tying them to my feet; one with rafia string and the other with jasmine's shoe-lace.haha i looked like a roman soldier...haha "new fashion".

got back n started goin into the water again but this time it wasnt that fun cos it was low tide and no matter how far we went out to sea, we could always feel the "muddy bed" n slimy seaweed n hard rocks... not a pretty feeling ESP when you cant see what's goin on down there. had to move THRICE cos at first we thought that it was the problem with that part then went to this open space. thinking that it was surprisingly open, we dashed into the water till this crap person acting very ang-moh like with a MINI surfer board asked us to get out. YES THAT WAS HIS TONE... bloody hell.... then lion n i were kindda pissed well i think we looked it cos this guy who was also "surfing" apologised to us n told us not to be angry.....HE was nice.... accompanied by a very terrific outlined 6pac....AHHHHH haha yea so we went in for a while then decided tha it was disgusting then went back. jt n suwen stayed back to crap somemore.

accopanied suwen to change n we were crammed up in this small cubicle cos the others were disgusting and the ONLY shower toilet was SO packd. how we managed to stay in that cubicle for so long is a mystery to me....

she left n went to pia cab... in the end she got on one like in 5 min time?? see who ask you to be so pessimistic.... :)

decicded to play somemore then made a tunnel somewhat like the grand prix one... VERY VERY FUN...toook MANY MANY pictures but dear gel has not uploaded them yet... still waiting...
~thus ended the very very fun outing we had at the beach~

went to hoe n today was very slack cos this group of sec3 were there... i pity the guys cos like the girls are SUPER noisy... seriously...there was this who kept on "teh-ing" hoe... not the ones that guys do to each other but yea.... then another one had a voice so low, it shocked you out of conc once she spoke...seriously. then aline was like "no wonder the guys have to wear headphones" haa DAMN TRUE....and she ROCKS cos she brought the AHS yearbk. okay okay that pic S-U-C-K-E-D BIG TIME but at least i know the full name... :) (HLZM) hahaa should be if my memory serves me...then again it has never so "oh well!"

got home, wasnt hungry so went up to fa mou in front of the tv....USUAL haha then msged hey gnoy n kel...haha kel n i were like already planning for the next outing and hint hint, vodka might be involved...haha*rubs hands*

talked to suwen, san baa-ed again... everyone needs a bit of that sometimes..haha was comtemplating whether to mix the bol's blue with ginger ale but decided to "heck it" cos was too lazy n didnt feel like it in the end. omg imagine how much redder my face would've turned if i did. anyway gor got home then ate dinner with him....yes at 11pm... haha hope it'll all digest well... but i guess i would be too shagged to feel any discomfort if i ever do. but that's the divine advantage anyone has when their YOUNG! "your free to do what you want to do!!!" haha....

tml got dental!!! ahhh gettin freaked.... so sad i dont think i can go study with subway freak cos like there's so much goin on durin the bloody hols n the only place i'm allowed to go for self studying is at the ulu cc nearby.... sian...

so happy today cos u were much more open. :) that walk will be in my mind always. n it was such a "perfect" setting. ^^

okay so today rather the norm just peppered with fun conversations with suwen ..... so had the usual tuitions and all that.... looks like tml wont be goin to k-box :( uber bummer cos i was SO looking forward to it....hmmm hopefully can squeeze in a bit of time tml?? haha but IF THERE IS ANYONE OUT THERE WHO HAS JAY CHOU KARAOKAE SONGS PLEASE TAG ME WITH YOUR NAME N CONTACT NUMBER!! and i'm NOT joking.

was channel surfing...haha YES I KNOW.... what's new huh?? haa anyway, yea then caught a part of as told by ginger and i STILL love it.... this ep was "HEAT LIGHTNING" ppl out there look out for the ending song... IT ROCKS! very very sad for goodbyes. PLEASE IF ANYONE HAS THAT SONG OR HAS THE LYRICS PLEASE TAG ME N LEAVE YOUR NAME N CONTACT NO... i'm also not kiddin on this one.

found this song lyric from ep 41 of as told by ginger. it's almost a tear jerker but very VERY ginger-like...THAT'S why i fell in LOVE owith it.... okay here it goes. embrace it.

okay... feeling squiky clean squiky squiky clean :) today was amazing race and twas fun overall though my team just completed like 2 stations? haha... the thing that held us back was the trip to upper serangoon and then realising that the 1st station was at aljunied. -_-" precisely.

went to the camp first and mr seah yong yeh aka hey gnoy! was slacking there in that "tua bek gong" position under the terrace.. then kept ji xiao-ing him bout "huang hun de peng you"... ;) haha ... talking was casual with .... and i really feel bad for this yr's OAC group cos their camp site is like kindda anti-climax. but they are SERIOUSLY lucky in terms of activities... ZIP LINE (aka flyin' fox) AND KAYAKING!!!!! ahhhhh..... ddamn lucky la... but i've got my fair share! :)

climbed the skol back gate for the first time yet cos my group was too shagged to bother bout walkin to the main gate.... i'm proud of myself cos i could cross on the 1st try!!! moreover i took out my shoe WHILE i was on the gate...ah well... :)

met mine(pronounced as mint w/o the 't') at the concourse and just cooled our tired feet while lying on the benches..saw a curious-looking bird and finally realising that it was a kind of crane-ish bird. imitated the way it's head went in front when it walked... played "breath" and stood very titanic-like(jack!i'm flying!) / huoyuanjia-like when the wind came... nicceeee hahaa

took cab to cityhall with suwen to get her flip flops but they only had size 9 so she was quite bleached bout it.... then we made our way to bugis, unfortunately encountered the horrible dregs of society but decided to do our school proud n just didn't quieten them. got ourselves to zinc's n decided on the green one YAY!!! ^0^ but there's this minor glitch at the back....something wrong with the sewing....gonna change it on wed when i go shopping with joey jie jie!!! YAY!!!

took neos with suwen n did the back of our shirts so instead of crew, we added an 's' in front so it now looks like screw!! hee hee so cute!

celebrated mummy's b-dae at the baccarat n the food was moderately well la....not fantastic but definitely DEFINITELY better than FAN-TASTIC. (catch my drift?) found out that lisa jie was also from cchms but she grad in 1997 when soon was still a GEOG tcher n susan leow was DM(can you believe it?!!) haha yea then we started gossiping bout tchers esp a certain SGY... then the inevitable, of course stories of the paranormal... will not elaborate for it is now night time... :)

finally home and finally bathed.... i bid thee adieu...

~anon~

school was boring as usual but at least pei, jas n swen was there to light up me days.... ^^ was trying out the neck thing and found out that most guys r afraid of it too...yea...jt must've thought like wth...haha his face showed it. but try it cos the shoulders auto rise up...cute...

teased jasmine bout "iqk" at the toilet... haha i'm MEAN... heehee ....

just saw the wonderful flooding that samkelgellion did to my tag...niceee.... feel so loved... ^o^

wen jie came back to school!!!! haha dont be so down la...things will defintely pick up kay? just leave everything to time from now onwards. moreover if you keep on tryin to "push" it, it might just keep on goin further yea?

went to my "study area". finished a compo then called suwen MAJOR MISTAKE... i didnt stop till it was time up... my phone should seriously be locked.

just got off the phone with gor n we had a very very long and meaningful conversation bout my future. ah well.... i finally have a goal. DEPOFAC....yuupss... gonna make pannants EVERYWHERE. gor was like saying "i want you to do up the pannants n paste them on every tv at home. u know why? cos that's the only place you always look at everyday" -_-'' wanted to rebel but realised it was the truth...yupp defeated... AGAIN. GONNA STRIVE!!!

today was a shit up day. got snapped at by a person i thought was open and nice....then this had to happen then it made me pissed. i started lookin at my marks and found them way below mediocre thus plunging my depression even further.....ay mos realised it then he was like "eh smile leh" then i gave a snarl.... love my teeth...

after getting pissed as the above, i started getting pissed with the ppl round me.
1st was **** who acts does not coincide with her "grumbles". then it was the guy behind merely for him being himself, then was english n somehow i got pissed at MYee cos of the WSn thing.... horrible wretchin... haha yea.... then was lunch duty.

i was not in a very good mood alrdy so i started to feel pissed at the ccls, then at the stupid small boi who gave me DL-ed face, then i got pissed at the cartoon of the just-tea guy on the vending machine cos he had this very ji xiao face, then i saw francis n i got pissed at him cos i find him very irritating n poses as a treat to students. he walks in such an authoratative manner but like hello....if u wanna be so "in-control" be a bloody police man or something...come and torment student's lives. but thanks to dear dear law efu who did this cute hand thing(not the universal sign mind u), it brightened up my remaining duty time.

met suwen n went to the library. was still pissed then got even more pissed when the
stupid librarian told us not to sit on the table...i mean like wth, we're not posing a treat to school property or anything la then she still jiang wo men..... then we sat at the cute little corner of the obviously unpopular chi section. a girl wanted to walk thru us then cleverly decided not to but i still got pissed at her then wen was like "pls la, she also didnt do anything.....haiyo..." haha then i tried not to be too pissed at anyone else.....SO FAR.

physics period came and we got back our marks..... SHIT marks that is... then that bloody assss-ole who i get pissed off bcos he is him, had to make such a big fuss n be SO FRICCKIN insensitive for the ppl round him that i became even more pissed. was replaying the yi lu xiang bei song in my head repeatedly and started to feel the now-very-rare dpression that i used to have last time.... kept on tearing when wj tried to comfort me bout the marks....

was waitin for my mum to pick me up then dear dear jasmine sms-ed me to keep me company(i hope!) haha yea.... then went to cut hair n i got pissed at the woman cos she was like saying all this "promises" n sprouting all the diff things bout my hair style n all the things she could change it to, in the end, she just made it shorted and longer at the back(the v-shape kind) sian..... mummy told me that if i still didn't like it then i could cut it at the jap area...anyway need at go!!!! jas n swen, hang in there!

feel shagged.....n it's late moreover i'm watching dodgeball on cable....blog another day.....btw FD3 is GRUESOME