sucky!!! today is a REALLY, TOTALLY SUCKY DAY!!! i got punished by mr soon for not bringing my themometer!!! and juz becos of my sickening *toot* missin' thermometer, i have to stand in front of the school tml during flag-raising!! whats more, i have detention for like 2 days!!! mr. soon even told us that it'll be until 6!! HOW?!!! I cant tell my parents!!! like im a frickkin' ccl!!! how can i get detention???!!! ARG!!! and like out of all the ppl today that forgot to bring their thermometer, i am the ONLY ccl!!! ARG!!! WHY? WHY? WHY? and from this, i've got into soon's bad books... alicia said that it might only be for a while... but i'm not too sure though!! and moreover it'll be total EMBARRASSEMENT tml!! imagine, standing in front of the whole school when i'm NOT suppose to do these kind of thing!!! i even broke down just now cos i feel so frickkin terrible!!! I HATE MY LIFE!!! WISH I COULD BE SO SICK THAT I DONT NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL UNTIL THE END OF THE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for those ppl who wants to know who JIN is........i've got a msg for y'all..."KEEP ON WAITING!!!" cos i'll NEVER tell you!!!

All that i can say is that he is:
1) not in our school
2) my age
3) does not have a pierced ear....(yet)
4) is comical
5) looks presentable (in my eyes)
6) does not smoke...(yet)

for the person who can guess who he is... i'll present thee with a prize!!! *cheesy hosts show voice* MODEL NAME: Skylight VIII and for those who does not know what is that... it is a HONDA SPORTSCAR!!! And if you can spell the name out i'll give another 10'000 bucks!!! HOW BOUT THAT?!!! HAHA.....*being very lame*

I miss him so much!!! *sigh* now i am in the process of "si lianing" And whenever i listen to a specific CD "Love Classics" i become sooo sad and depressed.... i sometimes even think that there is nothing to look forward to in life and that there is no happiness... only when i met him for the 1st time THAT NIGHT did i have fun and really enjoyed myself in all my sec school life so far... *sigh once again* the nights that followed after our 1st meeting... i would be thinkin of him, thinking of what he was doin and recountin all the things he said and how good he looks in those clothes of his.... *haiz*

EXPRESSION DESCRIBING MY FEELINGS-
~ parting is such sweet sorrow that i shall say good night till it be morrow~
-Juliet- pg 65 -


~it's me wyntrice signing off!!~ buai! ~

yoz... like i just came home from the "party of the year" which was a TOTAL flop... i mean it was a beauty pagent but like they had already chosen the few selected ones and like there was a lot of boring parts...worse still, we had to move into the grand-audi cos there was lightning and a little drissle was forming...*sigh* so like the grand-audi was SUPER packed and SUPER humid. Everyone was sweating so much and fannin themselves...quite a funny scene...
Juz before the show, JS and i met Shi Ning, Viona and Jin Tian...i tell you they are SoO pretty!!! they wore sleeveless tee and mini skirt and they were wearing make-up... i like felt SoO out of place!! i was wearing my diseal pants and the 37 degrees tee.... i felt so guyish!!! i hate that esp when so many of the ppl there were ppl i know and that some of them were ex-crushes like *chimpazee* and *star-star* etc. I like saw my "kor" and i can say that he has improved on his hair-style!! (that's for sure) he like dyed his hair and grew it to a better length...thank goodness but i was like kindda shy to see him so guess i tried to avoid him...haha... I was so bored and FINALLY realised that we were walkin in circles and that we had nothin in machogany to do so we went to look for Shi Ning and frens... when we met them, Jin Tian applied foundation on my face and like she was a genius!!! Chessia said that my complexion was nice and like i was all "erm..." haha but i was such a "swa ku" and after arriving back home, i like had to call Jin Tian and like ask her how to wash it off!!! haha so embarrassing...

Half way through the show, JS, Aloy and i went up to the top storey of the grand-audi and we met Ivie there. she was with some of the DL girls and like most of them were looking pretty bored.... and once again, i felt like a "guy" cos like all of the girls there were wearing feminine clothing and i was like so ... "guyish" AGAIN... *sigh*

~update later~

now in my bro's room awaitin the time to change into my casual clothes for the "teens pagent" or something like that. Anyway joel is representing our school and like most of us are like totally "HUH??" bout this issue cos like it was totally unexpected and they did not even like hold auditions to search for the person. So juz pondering on what to wear and like whether i should go or not... *sigh* but like no one is going with me and ANNA had to turn me down... *sob...sob* but chen cheng says that ppl that i know from the bbq is goin and i wanna knw who is... so like secretly hopin that it may be... *ahem* haha but i doubt it la... why would *ahem* be going??? and anyway chen cheng would tell me if *ahem* goin rite?? but he didnt... so i guess not!! *sigh...sigh* so saddenin!!! haha looks like my heart juz dieded! (all the broken English phrases starts to pour out from my mouth!!) haha!

well i better get changed and start to doll up myself...well there's is nothing much to doll up cos it wont make a difference... i will always look ugly and that no guy would be attracted cos my over-sized body!! haha!!

~well this is wyntrice signin' off again!!~
~buai!!~

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SECOND DAY

So it was night and like i was so tired cos i juz came back from ccl camp...i like only slept for 2 hours manzzz.....but JS and i had to do the script for the item which was for the campfire...we were like up until 12.30 in the morning writing a stupid script on 2 miserable pieces of small paper!! haiz anyway we decided to call it a night and like i was tossin and turning in bunk and before i knew it was already morning. the light outside the room was like so SUPER bright that i was blinded by it and like my "bed" was directly juz opposite it...*sigh* okay..okay when i woke up i found it super hard to open my eyes properly... and even in my very groggy state, i could feel that something was deff. wrong. Then some gals sharing my room was like "wyntrice! your eyes are swollen!" i was quite unaffected by it cos i did not know the extent of the "damage" done to my eyes. When i looked into the mirror of the toilet... i like totally FREAKED out!! I screamed so hard that i think my toncils flew out my mouth and fly back in again... haiz anyway i informed SUQUIERA and even he did not know what the cause of it was.... so like the whole day i was walkin around with my hands covering my forehead....and of course everywhere i went there would be stares...not bcos i'm a ravishing beauty(definitley not! haha) but i mean where do you see a girl walkin around with her hands blocking her forehead and upper parts of her eyes?? haha it must have been quite a scene!!!
So when i called my mum, i realised that it had worsened SUPER much!! i called my mum and was soon ON MY WAY HOME!!! *yeah* home a last!! haha but most of the LY guys were quite shocked... Irvin was like "You gotta be kiddin me" and i was like "erm...not really" haiz anyway i really missed the campfire coz i wanted to do the FRIENDSHIP DANCE!!! thats not fair!! the only time when a guy holds your hand and no one cares at all and that is not considered as a taboo!! haha anyway i was on my way home and everyone at home was like uber shocked as well!! haha


MONDAY*WHEN I WAS SICK*

i took a jab at doc. lim clinic and it was really nothing. at the end of the day, i was recoverin and THANK GOODNESS no one really notice the next day!! haha

well it's me, wyntrice signing off!! buia buai!!

P.S. FINALLY i have finished the OAC post!

juz finished doing the math sums...haiz...so late already... my eyes are SoOo puffy!! almost like panda eyes...*sensing nostelgicity* (if there is such a word) anyway i'm gonna talk about my VERY eventful sec2 OAC camp.

FIRST DAY
so i woke up late and only when we were in the car and almost 3/4 of the journey did i realise that i had forgot to bring my specs!! i was so uber panicky!! but like i was afraid of tellin my bro cos he'll juz start scoldin me, tellin me bout how careless i am, scold me somemore, start grumbling to himself and when i try to utter a word of "sorry" he'll juz give me one of those murderous look that explains all that he is feeling. So anyway, i didnt bring my hp cos i didnt want it to get lost and get scolded once i reach home... so i used ai lin's mobile to sms me bro... juz a few min later they arrived with my ohh beloved specs and my bro juz crammed my mobile into my hand and told me that mum wanted me to bring it along with me. Now i would have an extra burden and extra worries.
The day before i had packed accordin to my memory of my p6 camp and i remembered vividly that it was the same duration. Thus, i packed into this really moderate sized "okey" bag...and to me, my bag was juz right for a 3 days 2 night camp(or so i thought). So anyway when i reached school, i had the shock of my life!!! everyone elses bag was like uber small and totally smaller than mine... i felt so out of place!! (still turn scarlet red when recounting the event) No one would believe how embarrassing it was for me to come in a totally big bag and to add on to the embarrassment, i came in my school skirt... when everyone was to come in either shorts or track pants... haiz luckily ai lin accompanied me to the toilet to change.
So as i was saying, when we reached the "camp site" it was totaly different from my p6 camp...i mean juz imagine, training camp compared to chalet!!! okay, okay so we like went up to the hall juz to have a brieffin' on the camp rules but i mean like yo!! ppl!! you like already printed It out on the paper and like we can read... the font is not that small u know!! anyway it was so unfortnate of me that i couldnt wear my shorts for the activities so i had to change into my uncomfortable track pants which were so uberly hot!! and the room was like total boot camp style. The beds were Next, we were very hard and DIRTY!! the matresses were like DUSTY and SANDY... moreover, unlike p6 camp, the rooms were not air-conditioned and okay call me spoilt but i was like kind of expectin air-con rooms. looks like RGPS had really spoilt us...me i mean(i apologise to all the angels of 6A sincerely) so we were briefed AGAIN and then we were dismissed for "belaying school"... At first i was all like "what the hell" and only after they had shown the action to us did the crowd say "OhHh" and "i see" so i like finally saw the light and later we were to do some high elements thingy.
It was lunch-time and we had to que for the food and i over-heard this guy/gal saying that it was like a prison where we had megre amt. of food to eat and that we to wash our own utencils after we had finished. So once again, i found out that i was the odd one out AGAIN cos i was like the only girl who was eating out of a mass tin and that only a few guys were using it... worse of all i didnt bring my own personal cup... so like half the time, i was either containin myself to after eating then running to my room to drink water or not to drink at all. *totally horrible* the rice was also very hard but the veggie dishes were Mmm...good haha! anyway while doing the high elements, our first stop was to walk across 3 long rods which were placed at different heights and they were like almost 3 to 4 storeys high!!! anyway i did it and was quite proud of myself cos i had juz realised that i'm totally afraid of heights!!! Later we had to go to another station where there was a platform that one had to stand on and then jump to grab the rod... i obviously did not reach it and worse of all i had to grabb the rope when it was goin at a very SUPER, DOOPER high speed... in the end i kena serious rope burn but "swa ku" me, i did not know that having a blister was bad and it was really hurtin esp when i poured water over it... so no choice but had to go see the first-aider...and guess who it was??? L*A !!! it had to be him..... spoil my first day of camp...haiz anyway he cleaned the "suffered area" and later rubbed some antisceptic onto it... Later i went back to the high elements place and comtinued to cross "the broken bridge" and only shavonne and i managed to do it... *yeah* haha so what happened next was a totally refreshing experience... no it was not a guy askin me to be his stead(will never happen to me so FAT HOPE FOR ME!) and no it was not some shuai ge passin me by... it actually was the time when we could BATHE!!! I was SOOo happy!!!

~update later~

haiz...miss all my primary school frens... mIsZ yA lOAds!!! there are so many of your that i miss!! i want to go back to the time when we were all so innocent, lovely,young and when the world had so many less problems like bitchy girls, stinky guys, bitchy girls again, stinky guys again, BGR, cynical ppl and last but not least, having your heart broken countless number of times esp when you are a girl of my size and small popularity amt... thats why i have gotten used to my life...always gettin rejected or juz not even getting close to telling him my real feelings...

juz got my hair cut again!!!
anyway...**** REALLY has a stead... I'M SSOOO SAD!!! *SOB...SOB* HAIZ so looks like i've gotta look somewhere else and not in that class anymore. All i can find is juz strong frendship and juz to play "hand-games"...

So TodAy Mr yUe aGrEeD To oUr cHeEr-lEaDiN pRoPoSAl *yeah...yeah* haha anyway i dont really feel THAT happy at all... dont know why... *haiz* i really am feelin UNDER THE WEATHER... haiz maybe juz bcos of ** shit really happens and it sucks!!!! ARG!! i hate it... i really,really,really hate it!!! i feel like crying but nothing comes out of my eyes... although my heart breaks for him, i still cant cry my heart out...

haiz... "under loves burden do i really sink" -romeo & juliet- and that's how i'm feelin right now

sad, hot tears are pouring down my face now... all the sadness that have been bottled up in me is starting to flow out and being released...

...i really suck...
...I better work on my description of emotions...

HiHI!!! anyway juz wanted to say that i'm completely heart-broken bcos the person that i have had a crush on since last year already has a stead.........for no reason....this always happens to me...haiz can't stand it at all!!!! hate this part of my life so FRICKKIN much...it ALWAYS happenes to me! SUCK MANzzz....

hIhI...ThOsE pPl Who ArE expecting to see the list of crushes/best frens/shuai ges then i VERY sorry but this is the wrong site. reason why is bcos that i would like to avoid 'misunderstandings' that will lead to disasterous outcomes(which i've personally experienced) so dont bother asking me to write it up on screen.... juz started this today...hope it does not become like the xanga and diary land entries...which have bcome UBER neglected by me....*lame topic*