And I'm Gonna Say It To...?

Sunday, October 30, 2005

just got the peter pan fairy theme and IT ROCKS!!!!! haha it's just so wonderful. you close you're eyes and listen and it sure takes you somewhere else. it's a MAGICAL song. [like the english t'cher] "it's a feeling when one is grateful for imagination" haha

oh dear, the song's put me in a gooey mood again... dang but it sure feels great. you just start smiling to yourself....it's like having a crush n by just the mere presence of him/her, your heart melts n you feel contented, haha but the best part of this song is that there's no emotional heartbreak when you know that the crush is heading no where. thus this song fills me up.

wahh...

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Friday, October 28, 2005

i'm through with crushes.... seriously.... it's horrible.... the feeling that he won't ever like you and that a certain person you trusted actually went to poke their noses into issues like these. WTH. i think i'm goin to stay off people now.... not people at large but people people. yea those ppl.

really wanna thank suwen for hearing me out. we sms-ed durin my math tuition bout IT and i got inspired and like decided that it was logical bout what suwen's doing with her current situation. THANKS AGAIN!!! ~daisy~

really wanna thank pei yee with the pep talk in the t'cher's toilet bout both our current situations. we kept on comparing but i was too tired to argue... didnt feel like i had any energy to anyway. yea SO THANKS AGAIN!!! ~xiao(2) dan(4) gao(1)~

really wanna thank rebecca for showing concern for me during tuition. she asked me what happened cos i was lookin down(not literally) yea and also that talk by the "long kang". was feeling much better and it increased my self-esteem... HOPE YOU COME BACK NEXT YEAR!!! as a JC student of course! haha n must study together also!!! *pouts* haha

finally, really wanna thank wen jie for telling me the truth. though i got hurt by it, it is seldom that the truth never hurts. but like what pei yee said "chang(2) tong(4) bu(4) ru(2) duan(2) tong(4) or was it duan(3) tong(4) bu(2) ru(1) chang(2) tong(4)" hmmm i think it should be the former.... yea the former.... haha and of course pearlyn! sorry for my big mouth that lead to such a horrible situation.... sorry but thhanks at the same time!!!

the onli person i don wanna thank is... ... ...... haha shi(4) mi(4) mi(4)!!!!!

*thanked a lot of ppl today*

P.S. to suwen and jasmine:
i'm sorry i really donnoe how to help you and solve this problem cos i really wont know what to do and i'm too weak to stand up for my frens.... i don wanna get involved.... i'm really sorry but i think alls well that ends well (whatever that means... just sounded fitting... n intellectual) time will heal all wounds(tho not in my case *suwen should know) yea but just hang in there!

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Sunday, October 23, 2005

before i start concentrating on my studies whoch is what i'll have to do the WHOLE of this holiday.... (cos i messed up my bloody EOYs) i have to relish this memory cos it's super pleasant.

today i wasn't supposed to go to east coast for sam's surprise, which is not so surprised anymore cos it's celebrated alrdy, picnic-cum-birthday party. but somehow i did get to go and was SUPER happy to see them. they were all sitting on the beach and talking while the guys were playing "beach soccar". yea and i arrived late cos before that they were playing beach volleyball and by the time i got there, the girls were all wet and wen jie was topless... that perv.

anyway was just talking to the girls and wading just below the knee area(didn't wanna get wet; afraid mum would find out and disapprove) yea but all of a sudden yang shen pushed me into the water and i, being clumsy, lost my balance and fell straight into the sea water. from then i forgot bout drying myself so i just continued to swim and play in the sea.... was VERY fun...

then sam they all were playin the sandy version of heart attck but whenever anyone hits, all the sea water sprayed on us and it went into my eyes.... went totally horrid and painful so decided to take a break (before that i kept on swollowing salty sea water and kept wiping the sea water off my eyes with my sea-watered hands thus not improving the sting) yea then talked to qin and buried her feet in sand.

went back to kah hui and she, pock pock, yang shen and i went swimming. we kept goin in and out of the water. but we always returned cos we were addicted to swimming in the sea.... it ROCKS. esp when the wave crashes against you... lovely feeling. later borrowed sam's clothes and showered. kah hui and i realised just how much sand was in our "ahems" haha yea. played soccar with the guys and a small little boy then the guys were calling him rooney... haha so cute then jt was like bullying him n making him get the ball all the time. then as i was playin i looked down and realised that the "ahems" were making darker marks at very unstrategic points. so i stopped and tried "spreading" the water. haha but didnt so decided to sit and not play anymore *sulks* haha but it was real fun.... more fun than the bbq.... hee hee.

while we were just sitting round at some bench, amos taught me a new word "guu-baa-bee-hoon" yea translates as "beef-bee-hoon" or "beef vermicilli" to be exact. then i told them bout "omletuu-fluomarge" [frenchie accent] meaning "cheese omelate" got it from dextor's lab. haaha then couldn't help myself and kept saying "GUUBAABEEHOON" haha. amos became very cheesed off after that. hee hee. sounded like a tribesmen. haha

got home and bathed throughly. (thank the inventors of proper sanitation,lee kuan yew,sg gov,inventors of soap 'n' shampoo) without you guys i wouldn't be feeling quite as clean as now. i thank thee and thy is eternally grathithful. went down and washed my sea-watered clthes n sam's too. very happy with myself.... but it is horridly tiring afterwards. couldn't eat much too.... feel ungrateful.... feel mean.

today rocked. cool day

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Saturday, October 15, 2005

yday was fun and so was today. yday went out with forgivers to eat soul garden....WTH la... changed to the skirt n polo in skol then choon kuat was like "wei4 she2 me4 chuan1 dao4 na4 yang4" in a very unbelievable voice... i mean like hallo.... i cannot wear like that ah.... choi. but on the whole was quite fun.... tho got squashed like sardines while taking neos.... but still quite fun... then today went out with pearlyn and ade they all..... met at cathy n watched into the blue,.... IT ROCKS and so does jessica alba.... whao her body super man.... but very funny cos the guys were "jessica alba... ... jessica alba... ..."{drooling} and girls were like "paul walker... paul walker" haha HE'S PACKS ARE SOOOOO NICE!!!!! ahhh!!! EVERYONE MUST WATCH THE SHOW!!! haah yea but after that we were walking round "aimlessly" in far east cos pearlyn n benji had to make their club shirt..... but on the whole quite funla. .... just super tired now... also quite sian....

hoping mummy will allow me go k-box with sunny n fishball.... rREALLY WANNA GO!!!

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Sunday, October 09, 2005

time has changed both us. trying to turn back the clock was wrong, twas not to be. now you've got you're own goal, it'll be a vicious and hurtful triangle... my end is getting more distant everytime i try.... i bow my head and say a last painful goodbye...

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Friday, October 07, 2005

okay sorry for not updating but that's what happens when you "entrust" me with a diary OF ANY KIND. but yea life's been busy and harsh but wouldn't have gotten thru them without my blessings!!! yea the 4 behinds. life's been tough!! 'cept for wenjie now la. his is quite stable... yea.

feel angry at myself for being so presumptous or however you spell it. yea over that thing.... such a bloody shity feelin la.... you feel so trapped and you can't retreat to early seem unknown and known too late and you can't try to improve it cos you know that nothing will come out of it. probably heartbreak but what you're gonna feel l8r and what you feel now is not much difference.... bloody hell la.... its like you wanna change you're life's perception but you can't cos of the cunning trap life's ended you up in..... and all the shity restictions.

they've got cute names for each other, they sms each other, they eat the same thing.. WTH la seriously... why is it always like this? two extreme emotions within the period of one day. i'll need the truth syringe very soon.... ... ....

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