Monday, February 28, 2005
went to ongs on sat after speech.... felt very down... donnoe why but i really thanked rebacca cos she was there for me.... sorry for listenin to all my crap... but really cos i felt that all my frens @ ongs were driftin away esp a specific dbball guy. and i still haven't found a very close fren there. i guess NO ONE can replace rowena.... SHE ROCKS!!!! tried to contact her but nth happened.... really missed her..... so i told rebecca all me sob stories and both of us agreed that we culdn't really trust cat-min-skirt cos she had most of the traits of AJC and some of rebecca's frens who were like AJC. so anywayi felt really down and was like moanin bout it.... would whin sometimes... then rebecca was really supportive..... I LOVE YOU~!!!! THANKS SO MUCH!!!! haha she also told me to stop being so crazee over HER and kept tellin me that SHE was not worth it and bla bla bla... [those who are strangers to what i'm sayin pls note that SHE is not really a SHE but a HE.... so thus, i'm not a homoe] [good to make things clear frm the start] anyway to come to think of it, SHE has had made me feel very sad b4 on a couple of times ever since p6...... man... SHE also almost split up rowena and i..... thank goodness it didn't haha.... frenship is forever but guys are WHENEVER.. haha got it frm the wallet shop.... sells really cool women-impowered logos on wallets... haha nice...watched "down with love" and enjoyed it immensly..... learnt sumthing from it..... women can't live with men and yet women can't live w/o men.... and it goes for the same for men too...... men don't know juz how much they need women tho they all say that they don't and all they need are their "brudders" or "abangs" or "soccar" or whatever..... but sooner or later man..... sooner or later..... haha [sound so threatening]down with love rocks and so does Ewan McGregor!!!!!
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Sunday, February 27, 2005
it's a wet sunday
was at the library on friday but then rmb that HE had LD. then tried to tell myself that he was not worth it and that i suld not care bout him anymore.....
found out that me comp was next to foustine's comp and later we shared a plate of chicken rice... yeah!!! thanks!!! haha will be thinner!!! haha anyway made our way to the aha rm to find that guides were takin up that rm.... so had to use confrence rm. HE was there at 3 plus and left at 3.30...... i was UBER disappointed....... felt DAMN sick.... so i talked to joen cos she was goin tru s
some "problems" which i culd totally relate to cos i went tru that b4.... and i think i mayb goin tru it yet again but hoping that it sn't. so teied to help her only to come to realise that i didn't know how to so i felt very angry at myself.... as i was talkin to eug n tttw, i realised that joen was lookin very sad so tried to get her into the conversation.... don't know whether it worked but i REALLY hope that it did!! so lionel really helped me and also advised me bout my appearence and dressin in order to look more attractive...... gosh it was such a long lisyt!!!!! haha.... on the way out, i was still talkin to lionel and unfortunatedly, those "conservative ppl" went and kept sayin "jie-di lian" "PLEASE LA" frenships are ruined becos of you ppl.... haha sat went to buy a new pair of red-blood coloured earings..... haah hopefully there wuld be drippin-lookin earings next time.... haha
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005
okay now i'm back in my bro's rm bloggin andnow it's a totally different tone....
~in the library~
as i said, i saw HIS bag and i was quite happy. anyway i found out that he was slpin so i went to the chinese section, hoped that there wuld be a fushigi yuugi fantasy but still didn't come true. so i was lookin at this book which had quite a few chinese words written on the spine. i culd only make up the 1st 2 words. he came to return a book. so i went to ask him what it was only to realise that the 2nd word was "da" instead of "liu" that i thought. so i turned to the front cover and saw a guy and a girl about to be in an embrace. quite romantic if all had gone well and smooth like my memory but it didn't so thus i didn't feel anything. i went off to aha rm. didn't really care though kept lookin at him and stealing glances. asked eugene for help but wasn't much of a help cos he was always threatenin me that he wuld tell others bout my cruch. anyway, i wanted to ask HIM whether he culd teach/coach me phyics but he was let off early. UNFORTUNATELY. so anyway i when we were all dismissed, i was at the bench and decided to continue to ask him [my horoscope readin told me to make the 1st moves] anyway i juz smsed him like whther his physics was good and he smsed me back with juz a "no". a bloody single friggin "no"
i guess this is a sign for me to stop. cos he already seems like he doesn't eve wanna start a conversation with me so what for?? i mean like i think it is pointless to cntinue. why shuld i change my hairstyle juz for someone who wuld not appreciate it or even take notice. why shuld i go and specifically steal glances for a person who doesn't care??? why ?? what for??? why waste my time and effort for him to try and notice me??? he doesn't care.... looks like no one does... not anymore.......not star nor HIM nor ani-bball nor anyone anymore.... no more....
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hello!!! anyway i couldn't go out for lunch with e eds gang cos mummy was like "i'm goin to be around cchms area so you better not let me catch you there ah" that freaked me out! haha but anyway stayed in claz and kept makin fun of jas-jie haha see i'm so nice to "block" off your names.... hahaanyway i went to the library to check out my horoscope for today and as i was goin up the library stairs, i saw HIS bag!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH haha tho i still don dare to find out which part of the library he is in.... haha i'm at comp N17..... but wouldn't it be great if he initiated to come up to me ??!!!!! haha *fantasizin too much* so anyway i'm quite happy now la..... haha the atmosphere is so right right now cos i'm listenin to michael learns to rock.... and i'm like writin bout this issue and maybe get sucked into a book???? haha nostalgia of the fushigi yuugi story!!! haha if only!!!! haha anyway better log off now and FIND HIM!!! haha bye!!!!
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Friday, February 11, 2005
okay so it's like the 2nd day of cny and last day of the holidays!!!! [sob sob] anyhow i regret the cny goodies, i'm growin horizontally!!!!! haha ~should've seen it comin, should've read the signs, anyway i guess it's over~ [fool again chorus] [sorry got carried away]
yesterday and today
lost a lot of monet huz by playin majong.... aiyo..... xin tong but anyway had dinner with pa's china fren and his daughter. she was very fun and had an american accent which was quite weird. cos you expect a very china-chinese accent but she had an americano accent. anyway, sat on a river cruise. felt very ashamed cos i'm a singaporean and in all my 15 yrs, i've neva been on singapore river cruise. i guess it's juz like the mentality of the french. those in paris will NEVER ride the river cruise cos they think it's embarrassing. [curtosy of before sunset] (which was a lovely show i might add)(though it was only an hr long) so anyhow, the night scenery was juz spectacular and amazin.... juz that it still cant beat paris' river cruise. the beauty of the eifle tower in unbeatable.
still had a very fun time with grace and anna.... haha sorry for makin you run to the toilet with me.... hope your knee caps recover soon..... and you have cross-country tml too!! totemo gomenasaii.
i learnt that grace actuallly punched a guy in the nose before!!! i mean how cool is that??? and it bled!!! haha and for your info, she's only 11 now.... and she punched the guy when she was MUCH younger. not to mention that the guy was also her senior. haa [talk bout girl power][wohoo!! it rocks] anyway wil be lookin forward to meetin her again.... haha
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
i really donnoe what to do.
i was tryin to finish my essay and suddenly i felt this hard guff on my back when i turned i saw it was jack-ass shan and he had kicked a BLOODY BASKET BALL at me and was like acting like he was so bloody scared then i was frustrated, i juz shouted for him to stop then he kicked again and it hit me head and i was really pissed with him. i shouted again and he act so figgin cute, i was so f***ed up with him. then he wanted to kick the BASKET BALL at me again but i moved out of that area. i got to the toilet and i juz had to let the tears out. just those that were already on the bridge. soon recovered but at the lecture theater i couldn't stand it anymore. i juz cried. that is a sucky feeling cos i really didn't want to look weak and like i didn;t wasnt to cry becos of him. i hate it!! I HATE HIM!!! I HATE SHANNON SEAH THAT ASS! he is the worse kind of person adnyone could come in contact with. writin this entry makes my blood boil!! i wish i could shame him in front of everyone, guff his brains out when i throw him against the wall, punch the intestines out of him and crack ALL his balls so that he'll stop using them in his vulgar speeches[maybe he's saying them cos he doesn't have any] RG!!!!!! i hate him i hate him i hate him!!!! that day i used my samurai wood sword for the 1st time this yr. it's that serious.i wonder how it would feel if i stab him in the abs, i mean it would be so cool to see him suffer and the desperation in his eyes!!!
he still hasn't apologised to me yet bout it. that;'s the worse part, he keeps on saying[my balls this la and my balls that la] but you don't even hav balls the size of raisins to apologize to a girl. what kind of person do you think you are??? soon i'll find a way to teach you a lesson. WATCH OUT!
okay..... quite bored today, didn't keep to my do-hw-if-there-is-any-time-on-sat resolution. but i can't be bugg now.
went to tm with sensei and sultana today to shop for some last minute cny clothes and i really can't wait for cny!! really wanna play majong and earn lots!! haha too bad it won't be the whole family celebrating it together. last time the 2 sides would be in the same restaurant and it would be so fun.... it sucks w/o the mediator. with the great matriach, the whole family juz separates and i juz HATE IT. like in jap: kazoku wa bara bara ku narimashita. sabishii to kanashii.
anyway, had an sms session with liarTJD and was so fircked off bout it. he was like no you are frenlier and more well endowed and all that crap. and at the same time he was like oh.. what's her name? what's her email add?? what's her no??? i mean i;m not pissed off at him cos i have feelings for him [hell no!] but i mean he is contradicting!! one minute he is like busty girls have more advantage but at the same time he is like so obviously smitten by her.. and like pls don rub it into me cos it really makes me feel worse than i already am! ARG.... so figged up.
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