i'm stressed up.

stressed up by my JLPT.
stressed up by my jc.
stressed up by validation in SC.
stressed up by obligation.

but i still carry on. because at least there's one part of my life i've finally figured out. i've stopped being so discontented with the lack there of because i'm convinced that when it really happens, i'm sure it's gonna be beautiful.

this song is wonderful. lyrics are SUPERB...well to an emo-ing teen it is.
ALMOST LOVER - A FINE FRENZY. (only the hills)

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

i'm back in Singapore and am still suffering from jetleg. woke up at 4 in the AFTERNOON!! yesyes dear wen did try to accompany me through the night but by 2am i think it was too much of a stretch for her.haha.

finally caught up with my hills and even thought it might be staged, it's kindda like a "rule" book where you can learn how to deal with things and how to "treat" certain situations.....i'm kindda rambling cause i dont really wanna reveal too much on what i'm actually applying the "rules" to but for those who know, it has to do with skinnies and a bicycle! ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
go on... laugh all you want. hrump.

oli is away and wont be back AT ALL until next year so i'm missing her.. :(
but i hope she'll be alright esp while she does her trekking. hmm it's kindda sian to be back. when you're overseas, you tend to run away from all the responsibilities and most of reality and you just have fun... and it was real fun hanging out with my brothers. esp since both have been overseas this year and just the 3 of us have not really hung out that much. yea...talk cock sing song play majong was what we did in those 2 weekends. yea...can't wait for next year dec when i'm done with my As and marcus gorgor is done with his masters and benji gorgor is *hopefully* still working in SG. but at least we're all gonna be in SG for x'mas. woots!!!

man... there's still the giving out of cards, the buying of presents and blah blah blah.
the only thing about the trip that was stressful was buying back stuff for everyone else in SG. honestly, i should just adopt the "special people" list.

it's the weekend which means that my stay here is coming to an end... :( i finally got use to the weather here then so fast must go back...raah... but then again after all the musicals have been watched, then there's really nothing for a "tourist" to do anymore. shopping is also out of the question esp when you look at everything and start converting...you go *bonk*

but the only thing that i dont look forward to about going back to singapore would be 1)the 12 OR 14 hour long flight and 2)the shit i WILL have to do for orientation. believe me, if it(orientation 1) was done the conventional way then i wouldnt be so pissed off and disgrunted.... yea

as usual i'm up earlier than my brother but today cannot blame him la. he was like up most of the night doing up his project. poor thing. haha and i overheard his conversation with selina when they were on skype!! haha SHHHHH!!! dont tell him! yea. so today he's going to school and i'm probably going to the different galleries. hmmm not really excited about the art museums but more of the photographers gallery!!! haah but the tate modern photographs werent that good. as in it wasnt very inspirational. the one that i saw in ponden lane was SO MUCH MORE INSPIRING. well as if i'm becoming one in the near future. oh wells.

today i shall try my HARDEST to get everyone's present. i'm sorry la but here it's like TIMES 3 can?! (see i seldon...actually NEVER used "can" so if i used it here, that means it's really an emphasis and not my inner "ah lian" coming out okayzz) hurhur. yea so i'll try to get y'all prezzies but in case i dont. PISS OFF!!! hahhar.

since there are too many ppl on my list, i shall just simply act like one of those snob shits on mtv's sweet sixteen and CROSS out ppl from the list!! HARHARHAR!!!*evil laugh*

P.S. i really wished i could do the previously mentioned but cannot la... dont think i can. pffffts.

hello hello!! it's been 4 days since and i'm now in london. basically, i've been watching musicals and mostly walking. i've also realised one major flaw in my mentality on london's cuisine. there isnt much a sole london food simply because london is so diverse and being such a metropolitan city, it's really hard not to be. in london, i've been to Japan, Italy, Spain, Mexico, Hong Kong, China, France, Germany, Belgium etc etc etc. ya. well i guess the most london kindda of food would be BANGERS AND MASH, the typical big english breakfast and fish and chips(though there isnt much of a big hooha on it)

today i went to topshop in london and i tell you... it's like 4 stories the amt of clothes at forever21 but better quality. however, i came out with only a pair of shoes and earrings. yup. even though there was sooo much clothes, nothing caught my eye. oh wells.

hello!!! i'm now ____km away in my brother's liverpool apartment waiting for my dear sleeping brothers to wake up so that we can finally eat breakfast. it's name? "the big one". and when you're in europe, when they say "big"they really mean "BIG". HEH

the 12hr50min plane ride was as you know coming from wyntrice, just simply horrible. the first few hours were okay because i watched STARDUST!!! It's SUPERB!! then watched little mermaid (XD it's NICE LOR) then watched simpsons but only for "spiderpig". then read wen's letter and yea i went "awwwww" at the sitting-next-to-me part. haha but after that... ....

during the whole 12 hours, i only ate a piece of chicken, some carrots, 3 mushrooms and a bun. drank just too much orange juice and i started puking. YES, AGAIN. so i puked around 4-5 times. it was horrible. so when marcus gorgor "found" me at amt coffee, i was sulking at one corner. heh. took a cab back which was very long then i guess the petrol kiosk "sausage roll" which i tried to eat came crawling back out once we reached his apartment. we tried to grab some dinner at some chinese restaurant because i was looking for something light like kwaytiao soup la, yong tau foo la, fishball tang hoon soup la. basket all don't have. so i went there and end up decided on a vegetable noodles. sounds very safe right? HA. the HUGE bowl of soup noodles was bigger than the size of those ramen bowls at ajisen and FILLED ALMOST TO THE BRIM. and it smelt damn weird la. after eating a bit more i realised it was because the soup base was made from BEEF!!! >_<

yea. then took a TWO hour train to liverpool. it's DAMN COLD HERE. according to benji gorgor, it rains everyday. haha and just to scare my parents, someone just got shot the other day at the city centre. but it was a revenge thing la so not just out of the blue kenna shot. yea but benji gorgor's apartment is SUUUUPER NICCEEE. haha then can see random seagulls flying past the glass windows. but we had a nice lil supper that consisted of milo and a random chicken pie. XD and marcus gorgor and i took the couch and i being shorter took the smaller one lor. and benji korkor is watching me blog over my shoulder.

P.S. after that 12 hour plane ride, mummy and papa should be happy to know that i'm aiming for local U now. only at most 45min bus ride.

haha didnt go for econs today because i woke up and just didnt feel like it. ;P went for japanese and as usual was frantically trying to memorise as much as i could in the 15min train ride from kembagan to tampines.. heh as if it helped. SO. anna is acting like a free bird now that O levels has ended. haha... even though it's not really 16nov2007 but i think a proper tribute should be made to all of year 2006 who survived O levels.

yay... after a gruelling A math and chem paper.



right so i remembered that i wanted to blog alot about the happenings and my random thoughts but i'm tired so.. BOOHOO. yay 3 more days till i whoosh off to london!! XD

P.S. oh i finally am able to make decent looking AND tasting onigiri!!! haha they look triangular now!!! sooo much better than the circular blobs on my 1st and 2nd attempt. 3rd attempts RAWK. going to the zoo and hopefully see my PIGLETS!!!
*sings*
"SPIDER PIG!! SPIDER PIG!!
does whatever a spider pig does
can he swing from a web?
no he cant cuz he's a pig!"

couch potato is IN DA 'OUSE!!! yes... it was that hiong that my mum started calling me that the whole day. these were non-stop the whole evening. yes i didnt count what i watched before. gilmoregirls, simpsons, fantastic4, more internet stuff, the noose and back to internet stuff...SHIZZ

i loooove the noose. it's one of the rare incidences when i actually congratulate channel5 for being...how'd you call it?........unconservative. it's almost like the soup or what the buck. absolutely hilarious and wonderful.

now that i'm squeaky-clean and has washed away all the grease in my hair, i'm in a totally placid mood to recount the day's incidents... one which specially makes me happy.XD ya lah, i'm am chio-ing now la.

went to school for GP and crapped with san and gissy during lecture..heh...went for jap and FINALLY had lunch with anna then i realised it was 1 and a half hours to math tuition. hence started my internal debate on what to do in the mean time. i thought that going home then going for tuition was a waste of transport time so eccentric me went to the airport and slept for a while. i was DAMN tired. too much ying ye 3+1 until 2++ then waking up at 7 in the morning. but when i woke up, i had this SUPER bad headache. super super painful. then it continued all the way through maths and bloody crap la, the tutor so adamant on teaching me partial fractions when school will be teaching me normal distribution. WTH. math+headache=NOT EASY.

oli, my saviour then brought me to ice cream chefs (like default already) and i was so happy because i've not been there for a while and when i entered, i exclaimed "好久不见了!!" but my head was still pounding so i asked beanie boy whether he had panadol flavoured ice cream. i know it's not funny or remotely intellectually humorous but that was the extent of pain and delusion that my headache brought me.

so i tried watermelony and honeydew with fruitloops. (eh it was a damn tough decision with that headache of mine and i NEVER have headaches... which is damn weird la). yea but i kept feeling the need to rub my temples and forehead because it was throbbing. beanie boy kept coming over to kay poh and kachao us but i would always go "我头很痛啦". after a while, he came over again then after my same response, he went over to the counter and i saw that he was trying to find some panadol. AWWWWWWW. yea then he gave me the panadol extra. SOOOO SWEEET. 超体贴!!!!haha that's the extra treatment you get when you go to a shop more than twice a week. oh yea, only when we were about to leave then i talked to the CG about sushi tei. XD.

i feel that it's really at seventeen that you start learning the true values of life. when you're younger, you just act as if you do or are just too caught up with wanting to grow up that it just passes you by. at seventeen, there's still traces of that childish angst that's floating in you but you get to appreciate how maturity can be like a pair of eyes guilding you through the hardships. these glimsps of life's important lessons are so precious yet fleeting that once they pass you by, NEVER ignore them. absorb them, learn from them so that when something similar happens to you, you wont get thrashed down as hard but use you sheild of knowledge to protect you, protect you from the pain.


originally, there was nothing here. just a blank. a void. an empty space... until you filled it up.


staring out the window, noticing the flashes of lightning illuminating the matt ebony black-coloured sky that only classic piano seats of the 80s could reflect. hearing the pelts of the rain, the clashes of thunder, i realise that life is pretty much like the black sky. uncertain. the lightning is moments when you do actually 'see the light' and trudge on in the unending journey of living life. i guess that's what friends and family are really for. there're lightning flashes to remind you of who you are as well as lessons to guide you through life. and i guess your parents are the only ones who really know you through and through and that's why they always have to keep a look out for you even though at times you seem to really get fedup at their continuous nagging. my parents know me more than i may ever know myself and that's why i feel a huge sense of regret that i don't know them more.

i have to go to china town soooon cos it's super interesting la... met meerkat, dugong, waiwan and enqi at chinatown mrt station and headed to k-ster obviously celebrating our liberation from OP.haha. yes.. it was fun and all. missed k-ing.

YES!! today i shall mark the day that i could finally put on some decent eye-lining on my own as well as hairstyling. i can actually imagine ros shaking her head in a very disapproving manna haha! fcube huh!!!

hmmmmm i think i should try to pick up piano again... and i realised that after i've grown up, i start to appreciate classical piano pieces. i used to go all gaga over pop songs but somehow, the true essence of piano is kindda lost in those songs. classical piano is the way to go. but it's been soooo long. i tried to listen to a piece on youtube and follow the score, but i got lost half-way.. urg. i shall wait when everyone's out of the house, then i shall start to practise... and it doesnt help when i'm surrounded by neighbours whose children are MUCH younger than i am but can play so much better. oh craps, and tomorrow's sunday.

heyhey!! like my NEW blogskin?? very un-emo.... and i like the simplicity of the whole layout... i guess that's why i still prefer blogger to lj. considering that this has been the furthest i've gone to incorporating interactiveness in my blog, it's kindda clear that i'm not a very lj kind of person.

OP was today and I'M VERRRRY HAPPY IT'S OVVVVVER!!! haha yes and thanks to the rain, lightning and thunder, my nerves weren't that shaken... even though i could feel myself burning up... haha let's just say that while waiting for the internal moderator, my face became super red... oh ya and i'd like to say kudos to the arts students who came up with beautiful bullshit for QnA.

dear ee ting would like to know that i've been officially hooked on to ying ye3+1. however, i've realised that taiwan serials are starting to copy the plots of those korean ones. super tragic la.oh mans...either someone has some disease and makes the entire thing heartbreaking(huan huan ai) or one of the characters died and makes people sad too(ying ye 3+1) but they all make me go all huan chi and that's why i spend up to a few hours every night watching them on youtube. XD

yayyay.... tml going KKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WE ARE TP125!!!

so the halloween dinner wasnt that all bad. haha i even won a trip for one to genting for 2 nights. hmmm somehow i'd rather win the ipod than the trip. oh wells. yes so i thought it was going to really bad and boring but to my surprise the games were fun and the MC was entertaining enough. PLUS the drag queen was SUPERB!!! oh man.

yea, so there was this guy that volunteered for some game and went on stage. since he was the only local after 10 foreigners, i was like "phew something different" and he wasnt that bad looking either.. PLUS he was wearing a blue pirate-like costume. then i realised he looked a wee bit like jason from sepet... as i was about to lean to wawa to tell her that he was quite yandao, my father's business friend's wife(sitting next to me) tapped me on my shoulder and said, "that boy on stage's my son!". i was sooooo heng i didnt say it out loud la. omg. total "OMSH" moment.

but i found out from my dad that he's not that old either!!!! XD
and my new fav phrase would be "OH CAPTAIN! MY CAPTAIN!"

i think what i told fadybaby bout me not having anymore eye candy has just been updated!!! hahaha