2.4 is OVER!!!! yea!! but recent info just told me that if i wanna get a gold for nafa, i must retake my 2.4..... sigh..... just when i thought the worst was over... looks like zenny didn't help... crap but anyway today wen jie lectured me bout losing weight and the horrible effects milo has on you....
3 of our classes were present for 2.4. saw him, didn't know if he saw me, wouldn't even make a difference since he didn't show any sign of noticing me but what the hey, if it's not meant to be then i guess it's just not. how sad.
a few days ago, saw NE carrying GN's thing so felt sad, asked pei pei bout it n she comforted me with an example. the 2 in my class, same situation but the guy still didn't like her. twas true in THAT situation but how about this??!! ARG ARG ARG. donnoe what to do...
anw on a lighter note., hope that i'll find time to go gyming with wen jie.... i wanna lose pounds!!! haha hope so though.
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like my new blog skin!!! during recess, sam , huay huay and pei pei and i were eating and discussing bout watching charlie and chocolate factory when it came out..... then they started talkin bout the things inside the book so i was just eating quietly.... haha so now, i decided to read the book so that i would be able to understand the movie a wee bit beatter[irsh accent] haha i'm just into the 2nd chapter and only now do i realise how much i've been missing!!!! it's SOOO COOL!!! now i know why oli jie jie is so crazee bout it.... who wouldn't? haha he's not mine anymore.... he wasn't ever but i used to think that he was.... not anymore... not since this year, not since knowing them... those two.... all in a period of this month..... is this what you get when you turn fifteen??? you get slapped right in the face by reality?!!!! why?? felt hurt, sad, angry so many things that i was not supposed to feel or follow.... feel angry at myself. it feels like i'm reaching out but he's still walking away with her. was melissa or jia ying ever true bout it those few months?? that maybe just maybe he was the least bit interested?? if he was then i think i blew it AGAIN. cos he's not anymore. i'm drowning.
guess i'll just live by the rule of the "the law of life is to be alone.... life and death(or love like how i put it) is just life's process. the misery and saddness we feel is just bcos we try to break the process of life. going against nature. don't" the line by Mandy Moore in "the first step of spoiling a relationship is by going inot a relationship... why do ppl go through so much trouble just to get hurt in the end?" thinkin bout these lines, they have a certain tadashii(correct) meaning to them. why do ppl go into a relationship knowing that it's gonna fail?will i fail?? willl i get to fail?
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school's open AGAIN. haha but it's okay la.... by the end of this weekend i would've finished all my holiday hw!! haha yes that's how much of a slacker i am.anw been frickkin busy with all this blarrdyy school things and all. tml doen for cl duty, crap la blarrdyy arrowed again. sigh but sei la vi! just visited pei ting's new blog and IT TOTALLY ROCKS!! i mean it like REAKS with japo stuff..... the song, the background.... man i LOVE the song it's like chuper japo-rocko-rebello thing all goin on..... it so rocks!!!! must ask her where she got it. i mean the song is like those which when you hear, you are put in a trance and just loose yourself and feel so energized. ROCKS! ha talked to rebecca today and she's a real sensible person... and a GREAT FREN. she told me like loads of comforting things and if i was not at ong's i would've just like teared..... FINE! cried but i wasn't that emotional, just quite pent up with anger and frustration but luckily i've got me fren.... the light at the end of this dark tunnel!!! haha sound so dramatic. anws really needed that talk and THANKS REBECCA!!!!!! MY DA JIE! if i didn't talk bout it i would've felt quite bad now and yea GRATEFUL TO REBECCA. one of her many wise words "these ppl are those that you should stay far away cos they only judge your person by looks and they are just a bunch of superficial gits(inserted by me) so don't waste your energy on them" yea GREAT REBECCA!!!
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