okay....sorry for being so mis-informed but only till now then i realise that he has a blog...only i'm very slow....but anyway....yea....

just felt it again...the "heart-wrenching" feeling that **** is surrounded by more n more of them... but it started out as < infactuation. yep. but after a year...somehow the longing to know more about **** has increased....but i dont like ****anymore...just really wanna get to know you. but your constantly surrounded by others it makes it so hard to communicate with you... just saw a snippet into your life n that small entry looks like just a tip of the ice-berg....there's so much inside u.... and how can i make you see that i wanna be the one u pour out ur feelings to? i want to be the one there for u. this feeling sucks. it's like i'm reaching out my hand but u just reject it....

anyway...stayed back today with jasmine to revise the vectors....everyone else was like "DONT NEED LA!!" whatever....anyway we were in the library and we THOUGHT that LIBRARIES=QUIET however, the silly lower sec students AND the sec3 students were damn bloody noisy la....wth.... they were shouting inside and the blur librarian didn't even bat a bloody eye lid at them la...wth and the only person she scolded was a boy who brought in a bag.... -_- i mean like pls la... no one would wanna steal your books la... then she herself was making so much noise tryin to explain the "library-ways" to the new librarian.... bloody hell....anyway yea...on the whole it was fun. then jas n i started talking bout grey's(however you spell it) anatomy...then the conversation switched to macho guys finding out they have either a womans's anatomy(eg.an ovary) of the lack of a man's anatomy(eg.only havin one nut)(<--- one example is hitler) SERIOUS!!!

just talked to suwen.... crazy girl goin goo-goo gaa-gaa over an emotion....haiyo....anyway tml's the last paper n it's CRAZY TOWN FOR US PPL!!!!! i am thankful we dont take bio if not i would be studyin my ass off right now....

had a bloody shitty day... wait let me go back to yday... okay sat and i went to skol with suwen and 'stead of studyin we had a little chat.... i think that it was better and more beneficial to me than anything...i finally found someone who felt the same way as i 'bout the JAC thing that happened to me in sec 1 n 2....anyway yea then i stayed up quite late n was just surfing friendster and found HIM. then i saw his stead and she's CHIO n HOT n SMART.... now i know why it was not possible...i mean like i dont think i can ever compare to her la.... then i saw her pics with her siblings n ALL of them are so chio!!! i was like why the hell are some ppl so lucky...what happened to me??? went to bed with a heavy heart....

okay like i said, today was a rather sucky shit day. decided to change my chinese tuition day to another cos like there's no point in "wastin" 2 hours on something that i'm not tested on for CT. yea then MSN-ed with wen n was very happy when sw asked me out for group study with jas/jt. so i thought "hmm well since chem wont be revised durin tuition might as well not go for it n then can study more with them" asked my mum and she was like snapped.....started tellin me that she doesn't BELIEVE me that i'm goin to study but that i'm goin to orchard.....i mean like WHAT THE FRICKKIN HELL..... orchard and BUGIS are 2 very diff places.... hello???!!!! why the hell would i wanna go watch movies when everyone else is working their asses off?? i mean like i alrdy feel the buzzz goin on and the competition vail every1's wearing now.... wth.... so i went to rant it off to wen... then dad came in...saying why i wanted to go out i was alrdy on the point of exasperation tryin to explain to him that i REALLY wanted to study with frens when he had to say i was goin out with a boyfren....that took the cake... HOW MANY BLOODY TIMES MUST I EXPLAIN IT TO YOU PPL B4 YOU GET IT INTO YOUR HEAD THAT I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFREN"?!!!!!i mean like arhhhhhh....... wont your listen??? it's 6 VERY VERY VERY SIMPLE words.... I DO NOT HAVE A BOYFREN!!!! shit life.... then mum came in and said that she does not believe that i was studyin then took out a newpaper article and she thought that i had plans to go cine to see that cockroach singer and top-less hunk who has an asshole of a character... i mean like wth!!! why would i burn up my WHOLE sunday afternnoon just to see them?? stupid crap shit..... then she was like well if you had no lied bout goin to ochard 'stead of tam this would not happen... i was like HEY! why not think of why i would be induced to resorting to do such things? its the BLOODY way you brought me up..... you know that you would never have consented me to goin but still, to save YOUR face, you still deny .....so what can i do??? it's just TOO BLOODY BAD that you dont believe me....and guess what?? SAME HERE MAN..... i wont believe you AT ALL..... neither would i trust u with secrets..... that time i actually showed you some hapenings in my world, i TRUSTED you to not freak out.... but look what happened?? you HAD to tell the aunties....your just so GREAT..... TRUST is a very important word....you keep on drillling that into my head well drill it into yours first. I'M NOT GONNA TRUST U NO MORE... many parents wanna know why their children feel that their frens are more important well here's the truth....FRIENDS UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER...PARENTS DONT!!! ppl and fraud family therapist keep on saying that teenagers are full of ansgt n therefore say that parents doin understand them...well IT;S THE BLOODY TRUTH..... they(FFTs) just wanna earn money so say things that agrees with parentss..... FULL OF SHIT!!!
called suwen and ranted then i was like choking between tears and alll that jazz....but wen's words were as smooth as the tiramisu....man she ROCKS.....

talked to her on MSN n found out she's got problems of her own.... dear.... it's all gonna be okay yea!!! dont ask me how....it's a mystery!! haha yea....

Jasmine.....i UNDERSTAND FULLY how you feel....i'm caught up in that parnt shit as well....but at least they believe you.... mine has no trust in me... i was so ficked up.....at least you can throw things around.....after i do, i get another round of shelling.....if you feel like it i think the stairways will be free!!!!!

take care gals....muacks! haha got this frm the love dedications and wen n i was laughin our asses off..... here it goes.... *clears throat* [iiz lurbbe euuiies] haha ya precisely....try to understand that...

okay at the request of miss jasmine and because my fingers are startin to ich, i shall blog...

hmm today's not been that eventful just that drama was held at the innovation centre. room was quite spacious and all that but somehow drama seems to drag on and on and on and it becomes boring..never knew there would be a day when i would say it... haha

lit was VERY interesting... my dear dear darlings of the "eel" table helped voice out my "disgruntedness" ... haha when Hi-bra-wearer came in, i went "oh! my eyes! my eyes!" haah then someone called her name then i went "oh! my ears! my ears!" hah then pei, jas and suwen started a banter bout "big mouths" and "talking SO much" esp the "busybody" part hahaa.....thanks guys....

chem was a drag... cos i still dont bloody understand organic chem and the bloody alkanes n alkenes.... why is ***n so good in it? i mean like he's s'posed to be bad at it.... wonder how he does it....hmmm mayb he does n't waste time bloggin.... heck la.

recess spent time alone again but at least this time was better cos Hi-bra-wearer was not there to be a spot in my eye.... however saw disgrceful-emo-wearer and lucky didn't eat my burger yet...haha poor ni shuai had to call her so many times.... UEW seriously is too dao.... miss popular my ASS...so what if their the size of brazil?? haha(got it frm bridget jones) btw, hoped my SLs wont be that unhappy with me.... but let me emphasise that i only CARE bout THEM and not anyone else of those higher craps...the stench of trechery is so prevalent that it almosts chokes.

during drama, just realised how well "the gang" works la.... we were goind off then had to walk past the band then they were playing some "glam" song then sun thai and i were pretending to be walking down the red carpet!! haaha we're a crazy bunch.... haha...

having english E-lesson, ya precisely.... anyway we are think of crap answers .... then callin each other with mt in front of them......we are bored creatures. b4 this, was quite pissed and down then crappy suwen n jasmine tried making weird faces and making me laugh..... then now better le..... shawn yu's song (qing tian xing lei) is the ROCKIEST.. *sizzling* haha hmmm he's FINALLY in the right mind to ask me bout last night... last night i was so pissed i could let go and make the whole gobhi desert sea lor..... hmmm that soundded weird.... but anyway.... just now i was in the toilet playn wen jie's phone then yanni cae in then i think i looked like i was peeing the guys way lor...so embarrassing.....[i was facing the cubicle with my back towards the outside then my hands still at the strategic places.....hhaa] i'm misuderstood..... haha hmmm better go write somemore crap comments... cheersssss......

it's almost 2 now.... feeling shagged n have had my contacts on since this morning..... i'm defintely feelin like crap...well not tthat bad huh...keeeee

after yet another long tuition at hoe's, went to get the sweet dispenser for ruth jiejie, got a present for ema as well (the red ashley).... hmm got hm, crammed half a mei yun and started out for cold storage for the sweets, SORRY SUWEN!!! really no more coloured wax.... *dammit* haha.... at watsons(sounds like the detectives assistant)keee called jasmine and got her chocs!!! haa got the amichelli for 4 of us.... yay!!! haa but it was $5.30 T_T

rushed home and wrapped the pressies, gan-ed to the airport at 6 then got into a cab and the whole journey, the disgrunted uncle started talking bout how they(taxi drivers) dont get medical and the basic kind of benefits... then started grumbling on stuck up executives at the office he tried for an interview.... THANK GOODNESS for the ECP, it takes you to changi in just $7.70....

met shaun at the check in, looks like he just reached. ruth jie jie was at T-2 eatin with her parents so both of us started walking to right wing of the terminal....talked bout general stuff then we found out we walked the whole of the terminal as in EAST to WEST and EAST AGAIN.... lingli called and we met at polar..... waited longer n jianghao n jane reached. ruth jie jie came and all of us started talking general stuff as well. bro came and it was D-time for the good byes.... it wasnt as teary so was still good...

got to ema's house and strated piggin...hee.... anna n i went into another room to watch some dvds (obviously you-know) then decided on initialD. its' a VERY slow movie.... jay chou looks good in the show but he cant act and he sounds wrong. edison looks every inch of the word WONDERFUL but the dvd we watched wasn't in cantonese so it was a bumemr plus edison wasn't really bad or pai-ed much in the show and shawn...hmm there's not much i can say bout him now is there??? haha

ate fortune cookies but i think i've got a sign, the 2 cookies that i chose had NO FORTUNE TICKET in any of them.... hmmm the cookies tasted nice tho. watched xiao hai bu ben and realised how much the 2 actors have developed into XHBB2... definitely taller, shui-er n their voices HAVE changed..haha.....feeling euphoric just thinkin of JA .... ohhh how wonderful infactuation feelss.haha

BSW was the onli thing that pulled me through that shitty day of school where i failed 3 frickin test... then dear dear jasmine, this super cute girl went to write in me "orsino" notebk a very nice scribblin at the top.... it helped me thru.... i didn't feel alone...haahahaa yea but BSW is OHHHHHH-SSSOOOO-HOOOTTT!!!!!!!!!!

bloody hell.... ahhhhhh hahahaa

HRD looks cute lor.... tution's so fun cos of HRD. HRD is SO lame but at the same time, you know, OH SO CUTE!!!! hahahahaa ahhhhhh..... man i feel so f^^^^^... :(
anyway today at bc, pei yee and i were laughin at some of the mistakes that ppl made for the compo, then we realised that both of our sentences were also inside. then the tcher said tat it was TOO FLOWERY cos we were both writing bout "you-know-what". so when the tcher was saying it out, the horrible guys at the other table were making those "hen leng" sounds.... wth but comical la...

jasmine has been keepin me company on SO MANY occasions... that girl is WONDERFUL.... i think it was a wed, we were sposed to go drool over JA but too bad no time then went to her house and watched 40-yr-old-virgin. i still cant imagine why guys (jt + jas's bro) can find it boring lor..... jt was practically like staring at the ceiling more than the screen. then ksw n jt kept foolin round with pillows. anyway rachel is CUTE, FRICKIN CUTE.ahaa somehow she has made me want to "GEt" one even more. haha