just had 4 screwed up days in a consecutive screwed up role.... somehow this is totally UNFAIR since hell week is in 2 days time.... then i will be officially TOTALLY KNACKED..... BY PARENTS NO DOUBT.....today's ENTIRE plan was thrown out of the door.... due to AN INTRUSION... IT screwed up the day, IT screwed up my plans and IT screwed up my ENTIRE mood for the rest of the night.... somehow that happy carefree feeling at the Carl's Jr studyGROUP is just another faraway dream....will i ever get back that feeling? that friendliness? if you've seen suwen's blog you would know that i saw you-know-who at pw with another girl.... ya... truth... self-delusion seems out of the question cos after much deliberation, i decided not to push it..... everything is a whirlpool.... for the timebeing my studies are put on hold, whatever i planned to do with my LL is out of control.... i'm goin down for it.... listening to "knocking on heaven's door" i seriously feel that i would be knocking on heaven's door.......pleading huh....eating the green apple i "stole" from hyatt i think bout my situation.... reflecting.......symbolising.... now what i'm feeling is just the sour taste....it's horrible.... but the after taste is sweet.... after this storm blows over, will i be feeling as sweet??Mama, take this badge off of meI can't use it anymore.It's gettin' dark, too dark for me to seeI feel like I'm knockin' on heaven's door.Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's doorKnock, knock, knockin' on heaven's doorKnock, knock, knockin' on heaven's doorKnock, knock, knockin' on heaven's doorMama, put my guns in the groundI can't shoot them anymore.That long black cloud is comin' downI feel like I'm knockin' on heaven's door.Knock, knock, knockin' on heaven's doorKnock, knock, knockin' on heaven's doorKnock, knock, knockin' on heaven's doorKnock, knock, knockin' on heaven's door
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