okay sorry for not updating but that's what happens when you "entrust" me with a diary OF ANY KIND. but yea life's been busy and harsh but wouldn't have gotten thru them without my blessings!!! yea the 4 behinds. life's been tough!! 'cept for wenjie now la. his is quite stable... yea.feel angry at myself for being so presumptous or however you spell it. yea over that thing.... such a bloody shity feelin la.... you feel so trapped and you can't retreat to early seem unknown and known too late and you can't try to improve it cos you know that nothing will come out of it. probably heartbreak but what you're gonna feel l8r and what you feel now is not much difference.... bloody hell la.... its like you wanna change you're life's perception but you can't cos of the cunning trap life's ended you up in..... and all the shity restictions. they've got cute names for each other, they sms each other, they eat the same thing.. WTH la seriously... why is it always like this? two extreme emotions within the period of one day. i'll need the truth syringe very soon.... ... ....
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