like my new blog skin!!! during recess, sam , huay huay and pei pei and i were eating and discussing bout watching charlie and chocolate factory when it came out..... then they started talkin bout the things inside the book so i was just eating quietly.... haha so now, i decided to read the book so that i would be able to understand the movie a wee bit beatter[irsh accent] haha i'm just into the 2nd chapter and only now do i realise how much i've been missing!!!! it's SOOO COOL!!! now i know why oli jie jie is so crazee bout it.... who wouldn't? haha he's not mine anymore.... he wasn't ever but i used to think that he was.... not anymore... not since this year, not since knowing them... those two.... all in a period of this month..... is this what you get when you turn fifteen??? you get slapped right in the face by reality?!!!! why?? felt hurt, sad, angry so many things that i was not supposed to feel or follow.... feel angry at myself. it feels like i'm reaching out but he's still walking away with her. was melissa or jia ying ever true bout it those few months?? that maybe just maybe he was the least bit interested?? if he was then i think i blew it AGAIN. cos he's not anymore. i'm drowning.
guess i'll just live by the rule of the "the law of life is to be alone.... life and death(or love like how i put it) is just life's process. the misery and saddness we feel is just bcos we try to break the process of life. going against nature. don't" the line by Mandy Moore in "the first step of spoiling a relationship is by going inot a relationship... why do ppl go through so much trouble just to get hurt in the end?" thinkin bout these lines, they have a certain tadashii(correct) meaning to them. why do ppl go into a relationship knowing that it's gonna fail?will i fail?? willl i get to fail?
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