PLEASE, THOSE VIEWIN THIS BLOG. DON BE PUT OFF BY THIS LONG ENTRY. GIVE ME YOUR SUGGESTIONS IF POSSIBLE. THANKS.have you ever had a fren? someone close but of a different gender? when you're with him you feel comfortable and at ease and it's okay to be looney. most of the time you feel happy round him. cos you can relate many things with him. seems like a fool prove plan where nth will go wrong. and you think the frenship will go on and will not end up goin down the drain. for me, i realised it did. i unexpected the unexpected.culd it have been caused by others who step in and make the situation/ frenship complicated? ppl who are conservative and pressurise those directly affectin the situation? this is what happened:this girl whose in the same situation as the above, just became close to this guy. she feels that she can communicate well with him and they share many things with each other like they wuld b able to relate many things to each other. they can be quite open with each other some times and most of the time, they tease each other. they share most interests. The girl calls almost everyday cos she likes to talk to him and it's somewhat a way for her to relax. just by a simple phone conversation. however one day, she calls him and he replies in a very, very "tired" tone that he feels "sian" . then she tried to prob further cos she's quite curious and kidda needs to talk. then he says: "i'm feelin sian cos you're callin me". they hang up. the girl takes in the reality of the words and it gives her such an impact that she feels like they just slapped her in the face. she starts to feel depressed. she starts to cry. a silent tear trickle down her cheek. the tears keep on flowin but no one notices. in the santuary of her room, she listens to sad ballads and cry somemore. the next day, there's a skool event. she does not see him at 1st then she notices his bag. she hears his name being read frm a card. she sees him comin back and she hides in the crowd. but she's just another face in the crowd to him isn't it? after a while she emerges frm the surroundings, she sees his back. she can;t help it cos tears are startin to form again. Again no one notices a girl crying in the toilet of the venue. the sad, helpless sobs are not heard amond the merry, desperate cheers. No one hears. she recovers and heads back to her place. but now she notices him more than ever. the good thing is that she feels numb..... for now. the next time he went out, he finally notice her and when he can't get out he calls her name. a sense of nostalgia overcomes her. then when she reminded him bout the previous day, his's expression changed and he went back to his seat. she doesn't know why. the event ends and she goes out of the venue. she walks over to the bank of the river. the sight patches up her bitten soul for a moment. she listens to the ballad they had listened together the day before and she starts to cry again. as she waits, she hopes that he will appear in front of her when she turns and hopes that he wuld explain to her and enlighten her bout what rendered him to say those things to her the day before..... nothing happens. she waits a while more but still nothin happends. with a sigh, she goes home.
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