My whole life is a big, dark void. My heart is a big, dark void. My whole world is a big, dark void. Nothing is worth doing anymore. Although i know that in a few days time i'll be okay. i really feel bad. the only guy whom i confessed my feelings to has rejected me. He has a gal himself... but c'mon...i didn't know! anyway, yesterday i was so sad. and as i was standing beside Geok Joo, i could feel her own saddness "Radiating" from her. in time, i started to feel depressed and started to tear....from then on.....i started to cry. Tear drops full of hatred, sadness, regret and most of all, love. those tears was forming at the brim of my eyes and it started to go "drip...drop" "pitter...patter" down my mundane face. I felt so crappy and feeling so bad that i just wanted to hide from the world. Get away from it all. I just couldn't stand it. i wanted to DIE. Senarioes of myself jumping from the 3rd floor flashed through my mind as i ran to the toilet to seek santuary. As i ran through the corridor, pass the numerous classrooms and pass the parapette wall, i thought of jumping onto one of them and just falling into sweet nothingness. Banging my fist against the tiled-toilet wall, i just wanted to forget about him. ..about that ass...that jerk... that fateful night when i first got to know him. i tried telling myself that he was not worth it but i just couldn't help but feeling blue. the thought of unknown sweet sensation was quite tempting as i looked out into the azure, blue sky. i just wanted to fall into the sky and NEVER RETURN. away from this void, away from all these pain and suffering.My heart had been crushed into a million pieces by the evil hand of love. It can NEVER be placed together again. it's just not fair that that jerk must do this kind of thing. Everyone else looks so happy. i just don't know how those facing BGR problems can look so calm and have a "blank" reaction to almost everything. therefore no one can comfort me. the fact is, i have no close/best friend. Reason is becos i DON'T HAVE ANY. my life is such a sad, depressed one. My heart is a void... there's nothing left inside it, no happiness, no love, no yearning anymore......

NOTHING'S LEFT