yesterday was the beginning of a really horrid weekend ahead. it was such a pivitol moment that i realised how drained i am of just being some random person in your phone list. it held no purpose cept for practicality and there was no special meaning to it. u didnt even reply me or talk to me. that cord i feel has been plucked and thrown away. we've lost that connection i thought we once had. i'm not special to u or to anyone for that matter.. esp and your obviously still so enamoured by her. dont know what i was thinking. just another name in your msn list that you dont talk to anymore.(which hurts even more when i recall all the times you'd initiate the convo.) everything's changing so much. even though i've cried so much, i still find the capacity to cry somemore. obstacles are supposed to make you feel stronger but somehow it doesnt work for me. i just get weaker and more isolated. tonight especially, though i was connected with so many ppl via modern conveniences, i've never felt so alone. so alone from u and u and u and u and u.
