i'm emo-ing now. yes. not over a guy (surprise surprise?) yea.. i missss my sg6. i MISSSSS them. i reaally miss them.. life somehow just aint the same anymore. there's that void that i've left empty and dont wanna fill because i know that i can never replace that void. it is solely for my dear SG6. finally getting back to work, i just couldnt help but wonder what the hell am i doing all this for. why am i working my ass off. why i'm trying so hard. call me a coward but life at PRE-U sem was so much better. it seriously was 5 days of euphoria and bliss. there wasnt any problems or stress. even if there was stress in completing the project, i enjoyed every bit of it. playing kindergarden and primary school hand games were not regarded as childish, somehow i think we were evoking our inner child and recapturing our childhood, when there was no worries and no pressure. we are each other's long lost childhood playmate. and i know this sounds impracticle and might hurt others but i find that SG6 was/is the best thing that ever happened to me and to think that setting a date for a movie marathon is already so difficult, it makes we wonder whether we can really keep in touch and our promises that we'll never forget each other. because no matter what happens, i'll never want to forget you guys and esp all the fun times and wonderful memories we shared.... because it would be impossible. i wish that pre-u sem could last forever and SG6 07 would be together always...no matter where we are and whatever crap we're going through. i really dont wanna lose contact. i'm scared that the post would be fewer and fewer and the conferences lesser and lesser. i miss tukitukii miss haidaii miss crappy sadistic slappping/clapping hand gamesi miss scandal or scandalousi miss short bus ridesi miss long aimless walks at nighti miss making fun of miss NUS and her boyfriendi miss nat's morning calls or perpectual newater bottlesi miss matteus scooby doo's laughi miss sarah's music and her putting her make-up oni miss joanne's crazinessi miss eunice doing her cave-man version of tongkaki miss grace's shaky handphonei miss darren's haidai and esp when he teases me bout gleni miss patrick being such a guai da gei miss yirui's himbo-nessi miss nasri when he makes me do takglam stuffi miss hafirah when she goes all FIIIIIIIIi miss james' blur looki miss jun ming's seriousnessi miss wee lick gaynessi miss sheena when she cant seem to wake joanne upi miss sneha crazy face when she doesnt wanna talk to anyone playing tukitukii miss domenic's dom dom while tempo-ingi miss andrew doing the papa thingi miss raja and her long bathsi miss veronica's silent caring esp for the groupI MISS SG6....
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i shouldnt be online right now because i havent even finished packing for pre-u sem... AND IT'S TML!!! yes... i'll be away from school for ONE WHOLE WEEK.... not as if anyone's gonna miss me....*looks around hinting unsubtly for ppl to disagree* anyways...i had a DAMN good dinner tonight, it was japo tepanyaki!!! whoo hoo!! and the chef once demonstrated to us, or rather proved to us that he was using some typr of alcohol that starts with "c" and sounds like deepac. *random* so yea, he lit it up and there was FIRE!!! i later realised that joey and my gasps of wonder could be heard from the video..oh shit, i still have china studies, GP and econs that i havent completed...oh well... AND THE SCRIPT.... i'm not pushing the work to you lor!!! more pictures to be expected in a week's time.... see ya then!!!wen!! cant wait to go out on friday!! but must help me think of a place to fit my HUGE bag...when i say HUGE....i MEAN HUGE... it's gonna get messyae....*ooh*
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somehow or another, my comp is now all in chinese. so instead of either "save in drafts" or "publish", i'm faced with my pea-sized amt of chinese knowledge and a 50/50 chance of "publishing" my post ; it's either the orange button or the blue button.i got my very own pair of court shoes!! this means i wont have to keep on borrowing from anna...i feel so bad, continuously borrowing from her. it was damn rush la.... esp when she had SYF and i had investiture rehearsal. yea so my mum sprung a surprise question "do you need an extra pair of sport shoes?" heh heh. she found out that royal sporting house was having a sale so now, i've got my nice blue reebok shoes. AND a white/orange reebok cap. "if you buy it, make sure you USE IT" was what mummy told me. AND my very own black reebok sports bra!!! heh... dont be mistaken, i aint no reebok fan...it just so happened it was on sale...this my friends, is not called cheepo, but making the best of the situation..... XDmet wen on thursday!! it might have been only a few small hours, but trust me, every minute was spent fruitfully and what's a few hours when u've already spent 2+ years and MANY phonecalls chatting like XIAO. (also boiling telephone porraige) wen gets what i mean. yea, so we jumped train and went to our haven - city hall. so, i told wen bout my plight and time contrain, she told me a way to come round it and we happily headed for subway at raffles city. (: but i think i got punished for that cos i didnt get to eat my parmesen oregano ): but it was F-U-N. and i havent seen wen for such a friccking long time la!! since labour day!!! which WAS meeting no.28 (just to clarify) so we've still NOT REACHED 30!!! anyways, went to get bnjs and each bite was A SPOONFUL OF HEAVEN..... even when eaten in a very imba bus.next week is pre-u sem week!! and i think it's because of that that i'm frickking slcaky now and have NOT done my china-studies CA assignment and my GP file which includes SEVEN reading logs. BOO HOO. whatever. XDdamn....LEE wen jie!! hurry motivate me so that we'll collect our JC1 subject rewards together!! AND howabout colours?? heee... and to KWEK wen jie, must wait for me to come back from pre-u sem then we try to K2 together also ya!!!"wanna go for the choir concert?""eh!""oh ya! you're emcee-ing""glad you remembered in time!"wen, now do you understand how i feel when YOU say "qi guai" ?! doesnt it make you CRINGE too??? heeeeP.S. what's scary is that i stopped taking pictures the day you broke my heart. but never again will i let that happen.
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how can you expect me to treat nicely after what an asshole you've been. i think the previous sentence either doesnt make sense or it is grammatically wrong. but whatever, i dont care. and i realised that i've used that phrase a lot of times already. the phrase being "i dont care". you keep on saying that i'm cold and hostile but i guess that's only applicable to you. go ask around whether i'm usually cold and hostile la. others would say "no". well maybe SHE will since she's so into agreeing and siding with you cos she's back into the seat of original scandal. whatever, i cant be bothered right now. and did it ever cross your mind that it could've been something you did that made me treat you like this? evil wyntrice is out now. wyntrice doesnt seem too happy with you and i think she's tired of putting up a front. so whenever you're around, wyntrice hides and i have to do the duty of protecting my other half and give you what you really deserve. i honestly cant be bothered bout whether i hurt you but somehow sometimes when i'm too evil, wyntrice comes out and cares. dont know why the hell she even bothers bout an asshole like you la. and why the hell do you always exclude her from the canoeing talk? she might be in council but that doesnt mean that she's not in canoeing. and by excluding her and just talking to your new crush doesnt make her feel any better. if you just wanna spend time with your crush then tell wyntrice face to face that you dont want her to be in the way of you and your crush. but you shouldnt worry because wyntrice will only go for canoeing for canoeing. she used to go for canoeing because you made her day better but now i'm gonna make sure that she goes for canoeing just for canoeing. you are something like algae; you seem harmless but end up hurting others real bad then just slip off and pretend it wasnt your fault at all. wyntrice is so dumb to let herself be bothered by you. oh ya, you think that when you wack wyntrice and she wacks back, it's totally unacceptable? please i'm making sure that you dont push her around anymore. dont think that she's some helpless girl who's gonna stand a guy wacking her. COS SHE'LL WACK BACK. and for those anal ppl who are anal bout me using the word 'cos', you can go away and f off. and i also cant understand why she's so nice to you la. you do nothing but torment her by cont'd to act so frenly with him. whatever, i know it's your own choice and that it doesnt mean she's miserable and that's why you cant be frenly but seriously. no wonder she has to roll her eyes so much. things are near to impossible of getting back to how it was. i dont want it to happen but it takes two hands to clap. if you dont seem interested in talking then you seriously think i'll be willing to strike a convo with you? dream on boy.
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heheh looks like i had a breakdown in the last entry. well.... i found out lots of things and broke down but sayang afi was there to hug and talk and was there for me... she's some super girl. when aisha saw me in school today, she kept on asking whether i was better and everything... man... you just gotta love those merepek minas! i SAYANG them! during break, went over to the phycos(or whats left of them) table and seriously, the only reason why i love them so much is because you'll never be sad/lonely without them. i got nostalgic too cos finally i experienced that old feeling of shouting as loud as you want and not be alone. there's only one word: "psycotic" NO 'H'!!glenn was as usual my loyal talking partner during chinese and we finally realised that football got us more aquainted. hee. after lesson, i somehow got him to go TM with me to get the courtshoes and by repayin his kindness, i randomly and rather inappropriately waved a pad in his face, and rather enthusiatically too. oh ya and we decided that in place of a baby, we shall have a cup of bubble tea in between us to represent our child. it all seems very weird doesnt it.council rehearsal was done TWICE and before that we all had to sai kang. seriously. sai kang meaning putting up the banner, flybar and esp measuring each row of chairs to be of equi-distance both in length and width. and a few of us were having our cramps like gourie, afi and i and we were all crabby and PMS-ing, well more on afi and my part. and oh crap, i donnoe what jimmy is gonna do tml. bet he's gonna pull some embarrassing crap again. sighs. and i've got a BOND FAMILY! (more on that with pictures) and james was nice enough to wait at the bustop with me for my mum to come pick me up cos we got released from school only at like ELEVEN pm! no kidding. and i talked to him and found out some stuff.oh and one more thing. i decided that i really don't wanna be sad over you anymore cos seriously, you're the extra C that i dont need in my life. you may smell nice but thinking it over, that's as far as it goes.you dont treat me nicely or similarly anymore. i'm not getting emo because all that emotional baggage that comes with you is just not worth it. i dont need that extra C no more.
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